i'm sick of being the sad one. the one with lots on her mind. the one always looking down. the boring one.
i want to be the fun and happy one.
i'm siiiiick of being the one that will put you in a bad mood and never has anything witty or brilliant to say.
i need to change, but for better because i hate how things have changed. i want to wake up and ( Read more... )

i don't want to write anything, because it'll just be whinging.
i just want to say things to people and not bear the consequences. like i really want to tell you to fuck off but i can't handle having another thing to worry about. i want to say to you that you've changed and i don't know how such a beautiful thing that kept me going now means ( Read more... )

this has always been my favourite Sarah McLachlan song. i can't describe how many time's i've fallen asleep to her Surfacing album. but this song, i discovered last night, has become my life and i cry and break everytime i hear it because i can relate so much. i'm sick of things being hard, i'm sick of being labelled "going through a rough time" or ( Read more... )

who are you to say that if i don't have the same beliefs as you that i'm going to go to hell?
who are you to say that you have to except others, believe in yourself and that i am one of god's children and he is there for me
unless your gay, which is the sin which seperates you from christ.
who the hell are you to corner and badger people about ( Read more... )

this family is a lost cause. and i feel selfish because i think of myself & block it out best i can because i dont know what else to do. and i'm scared. scared of the person living in this place may and will make me. i'm scared i'm going to become them ( Read more... )

today was yelling, forced apologies, enormous secrets reveiled, thoughts, feelings - alot of fustration & empathy, spending more money than i should, missing dancing & sleepy silences.
today was so fucking utterly forgettable
it depresses me.
urgh.. when will i wake up from this disgusting mood i bury myself in.

my weekend.
my weekend included fun & games with the innocent -

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this is selfish. & this is depressive. and i am arrogant and whinge way too much ( Read more... )