I didn't feel like going to bed when I got home. so I put on fuzzy pink boots and thought about asking caitlin what i should do about this but she has her own trouble.. apparently ryan is asleep already? anyway, it wasn't her problem and I should learn to deal with things myself... instead of just writing blindly on here.

I just wish it would ( Read more... )

when will we give it up. I don't pose that as a question either. There are alot of things I don't understand. Like why people say they love each other? why should we dismiss a feeling because someone has set limits to what qualifies as "love"? what happens to the other endless lost feelings? why do we sabotage relationships because we are scared? ( Read more... )

honestly...

• I really like rap

..especially jada kiss. and mase. But that new snoop dogg song--why is it so mesmerizing? It draws you in. I hate it for that reason.

• I like to have fun

..without worring about what people think. Don't call me a slut. You know you are too. We're young, come on, these are the days. I wish my friends would just leave ( Read more... )

things to love:

• bubbles
• pictures
• street lights that shine in your eyes
• old bands like dashboard
• your family

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I'm not sure what to write. I always feel like I need to write something in this after every weekend or when I'm emotional. It's not like I'm writing to anyone really.. I doubt more than two or three people read this anymore. I've just found it's sometimes easier to figure out your thoughts when you hide some facts than when you're completely ( Read more... )

Things are too real. and I know I've searched so long for "something real" but I'm just beginning to realize life isn't a perfect comfy place of beautiful christmas parties in big houses where your only trouble would be possibly losing the snowball fight to your brother. and then your mother hurries you both inside to have a huge christmas dinner ( Read more... )

I feel lonely. and I haven't heard from someone who I shouldn't be thinking about..

"Shed a tear 'cause I'm missing you
I'm still alright to smile"

stop being so beautiful baby, I know you too well.
I'm trying harder. I promise..

it's like these last couple nights have been blurred into one big... something. the only person who's actually talked to me about this was ryan. I talked to him for a long time tonight and I'm so glad him and caitlin are there for me. I really do love them alot. my nails are black and there's a black line across my left hand to signify I'm part of ( Read more... )

why is it that halloween always sneaks up on us?? I don't get it. I love halloween! and then... all the costume ideas I had come up with someone is already using!! ahhh. so I was going to find these cute cat ears I have and just wear those but MELISSA just wrote she might be a cat!!! hahaha I love you anyway mel... but it's okay I guess cause I can ( Read more... )