Out with the old, in with the new. This journal is too 'bitter' to continue it, its time to start a new. Those who still read my journal or interested in following my path through life can add my new journal _dooodles those of you close to my heart i'll add you in time anyway :)

This Journal is now Dead.

Lee xxxxx

...i wish just once they could of listened to my heart and understood the words i spoke, i wish they could of understood my true words and not just listened to the words of hatred and anger. Anger was then a apart of me but if they truely knew me as the person i was then they should of saw through all that and listened solely to the truth. I never ( Read more... )

Happy Sweet 16th Emma __unknown

I hope you have a wonderful!! day babes!! <33333

( bad rant session...dont read if u hate depressed people )

Ladies and Gentlemen, we be having snow on Christmas Day. Yey!!!!....ok, so maybe i'm not that excited lol. It'd be really cool if i could get into the christmas mood lol. I am a lil bit more 'in to' it then before lol, but nothing like i normally am.


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I'm in a happy-ish ok mood, but i know i'm just lying to myself but hey, its working for now so why question it heh. But god things suck, I aint really looking forward to christmas, i mean is it christmas?? certainly doesn't feel like it much to me, I just can't get in to it this year but yeh im stilling trying to. Things just aint so bloody merry ( Read more... )

I'm sad & Pathetic :( ....why dont some people just do me a favour, put a gun to my head and shoot me rather than rant & rave at how bad i am all the time, job done, nobody need bother with me then and for once i might be happy....or at least at peace.UPDATE: Okays, I feel loads better now, after having what little self-respect i had completely ( Read more... )

God today wasn't half a stuggle. I've never felt as low as i have been this week. My mum went away tuesday and won't be back til monday, my grandparents have both been in hospital and come out tomorrow, so she's gone down south to look after them for a few days to give my aunty a break. My sister is in respite, its like a home away from home where ( Read more... )

Hmm, they say i'm allowed to have one day a week where I can be completely down as long as i'm happy the rest of the week. Everybody is entitled to that day apparently....I guess i'm starting early this week. Tis the season to be jolly........lol yeh ok, whatever!!!!

( lyrics for the moment..... )

I am nothing but the reflection of the man I used to be. I feel cold & heartless. The tormentor I so much hated in others. Things between me and Renate have quietened down, I think for now, I won't be hearing from her for a while now, at least. That's suppose to be a good thing. She's said sorry for all the things she's done. But sorry is a word i' ( Read more... )