no I haven't quite disappeared off the face of the planet, but judging by most on here, they probably wouldn't mind if i did or not...it seems a lot of people dont really know what depression really is!? get to grips ok, tellin me to get out of the fuckin wallowing world of self pity i am sinkin into and move on!? it aint that fuckin simple ok ( Read more... )

great...im getting pissed =] ...tonight i'm contemplating ending it all and the one person that knows...you know what? they dont even give a fuck...nice aint it. this being the one person i thought i was close to and regarded as a loving friend, some one that said they cared so much and would always be there for me....well where has she been this ( Read more... )

What a week this has been? heh....its hard to describe just how i'm feeling...but i know this is gona be another long entry, so i'll start my lj-cut now lol

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Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ( Read more... )

and in the final hours, my love for her was but too strong....I couldn't make her or let her suffer the life that I have, why would anyone want to be stuck with me? I would only probably make her life a misery, i have nothing left to offer, my pride, dignity and faith in me have all but vanished..but i couldnt hurt her....in the end, she'll end up ( Read more... )

I, Can quite honestly say that I am my own worst enemy. Most things that go wrong in my life are my fault, it is how I have shaped my life, based on a past which has crippled me. Its time to move on? and yet I've tried so many times, and yet history is ironic in my life and forever repeats itself. And when it does I panic, and crawl back in to the ( Read more... )

Wow, last night was pretty damn good lol, i'm pretty glad i went out now, i'm glad Nat invited me along, she's sweet. I had my doubts to begin with...i mean everyone here knows my feelings currently lie with Cass, but yano, shes not interested in me like that, I understand, its cool and i'm moving on. Cass is a good close friend, so its sweet we ( Read more... )

...always gets me why women can fall for a guy that will lie to them, cheat on them, use them, abuse them, hit them, lounge about at home living of their gf's money, making a mess and expecting the gf to clean up, slobs, abusive wankers, no IQ, no job, no future, no self respect, no respect for others.....and yet women fall for them? ....and always ( Read more... )

hey, guess what!?

I'm a muppet. i've fucked things up that were already fucked up cause basically my fucked up life is a big fucking joke which is just fucked over time and time again.

Bye. Booked it, Packed it, Fucked Off!!

[UPDATE]Ahhhhh, I've typed this once, a long fucking entry...and then my pc crashed and rebooted and i lost it all, lol, ( Read more... )

And as if things couldn't get any worse?!!! I swear I must of done something seriously wrong in this life or a previous one?!

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