Not much to tell today,...phoned the Doctors as planned....ugh, I gotta wait til Friday 26th....the end of next bloody week, just to even speak to my Doctor on the phone. This is just getting beyond the joke now *sulks* ....he! wanted to see to me the other week about increasing my meds, yet when i made an appointment, I still had to wait 2 pissin ( Read more... )

hmmm, some people from work came see me today...it sucked, trying to pressure me into going back to work....saying i should think about getting back into a routine cause it would do me good!?!? its the routine that got me here in the first place!!! fuckers....had my mum there to though lol, mum's are great, she just kept saying well he doesn't have ( Read more... )

...Kill me now and make it quick ( Read more... )

Today was ok...well good in fact. ok, had a bit of a bad night last night, but im still here, I got through it....just wish i didnt drink. I'm starting to really hate the fact im drinking too much....but it really helps when im down...saying i've had a good day...meaning i spend this afternoon and evening with Cass, we were just messing around ( Read more... )

had a shitty boring day....went bowling, we won, 6-2? dont know how really, was playing shit in the end...even though it was suppose to be 8-0 to us, i just fucked up big style in the last game....wasn't feeling too bright, clever or well....though i haven't really been well for a few days now....its nothing like a virus, i know that...i think ( Read more... )

Awwww...I got this off Cass today


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Thanks so much to those that commented on the last post 'What you think about me?' it was so appreciated, and it did prove another purpose, you all lifted my spirits so much, I was touched by what you all wrote, it means a lot, made me realise just how much i'm loved, and just how much I treasure the friendship we have between us. Thankyou!! Linds ( Read more... )

I need a favour....and honest opinions, thoughts.
I'm not sure how Cass is really feeling...and I know people tell me I try too hard! but everytime that 'right' girl comes along, I always ended up missing out, sitting by and doing nothing, and I hate missing my chance....now Cass reads this, her lj is Trojan_princess though she's not started updating it yet, ( Read more... )

well today's been a bit up and down. It wasn't so bad to start with I guess. I struggle to get out of bed. When theres nothing to get up for I just can't drag myself out of bed ( Read more... )

skipped my meds today because i was late up...though i dont really see the point in taking them anyway...well no, I do, but they dont really do anygood, I feel a lot better after a few drinks and my spirits are heightened....I relax more into myself, and lose my inhabitions and become less uptight. The doc increased the dosage yesterday, but after ( Read more... )