my neck... my back....

[thefinalcall]

filthy filthy song. ew.

dude-- ive been awful at talkin to you guys and even worse with updates. ive been super busy guys. im sorry-- i dont love you any less... just wrapped up in band... and comin home and what not. <3

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[beingme1980]

i kno i said i was going 2 bed but i found myself forcing myself to stay awake after i began to have a nightmare about dad and what...what u know..what happened? omg tay..it's all coming back, it all really happened. For 24 years of my life I had convinced myself that it was all pretend and make-believe, how sad and pathetic is that????? Tay..im sry i thought of u as just a pretty face that got whatever he wanted just becuz of his looks, i guess i resented u for having evrything i didn't and mom and dad's love...but more importantly...dad's...dad's "respect", which is more then i should have ever hoped for. U got brains tho tay and i dig that, u have faith and even more so...a heart. i luv u man and i kno now that u deserved all the luv and respect u got man, that u would be there 4 me at any time man just like i'd do for u.Im sry i aint been shit 4 a big brother but i promise that all is gonna change now. i luv u.And u helped me more then u know, just becuz u didnt go thru it dont mean u cant understand! i luv u and thanx..really..

[thefinalcall]

yeah... i try my best to understand cause thats all i can do. *Sigh* i cant say i wish it had been me. because i dont have the strength to keep up with it. id be dead by now. im so glad you have more strength than i do cause i have you :)

[beingme1980]

Tay buddy..u understand as much as u can..i mean from an outsider lookin in and i respect that and apreciate that shit man and i luv u 4 that.

And Im glad u dont wish it had been u, but im sure if..if it had u'd have surprised urself with how strong u'd been becuz i mean u dont really have a choice u just have to keep going even if that means sucking it up.I kno u'd have pulled thru man besides I couldn't bare the thought of u being dead Tay..otherwise i probably had never confessed this u gave me the strength to get this out in the open and now there is just this huge relief. But over all im just glad u were spared lil brother and that i took it for us all..well..well accept for avie but yeah. luv u man no matter how much fukkin fight we get in lol

[doinitwitrythem]

Tay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Hey there you are buddy!That's my big brother.I missed you man and was wondering what was going on over in your end. Ha ha ha. Like I said, your band has been seriously fucking awesome as all hell! Keep that shit up!

I can't help but to feel kind of lost and left out. I get this bad feeling in my stomach right now like I shouldn't even ask but um..what are you talking about with Isaac? It sounds like it could be serious man? Has he began drinking again?Shit man...because if he did then I honestly dont know what the fuck im going to do with him.

You talked to Natalie?So she's very much alive and well right? *sighs with relief* good, good. I mean not that I like care or anything, I mean I do care, but I just..I don't..I don't like her like..you know, like, like THAT. U know "that" that. You know?Did I tell you?Im moving in with Kate. Its going to be great. Ike and I dont communicate, it's like talking to a wall.Well im out man.Love ya!

[thefinalcall]

eh im not talkin bout ikes deal... its bad. ill let him tell everyone.

hah i know zac.. and im glad shes alive and kicking. shes a good girl... just not my cup o tea

[doinitwitrythem]

REALLY??????????????Shit...now im like really worried now. I mean im not there man, I mean im back with kate and the twins and i just hope its not nothing too serious. Im calling him RIGHT AWAY!!!...shit...

As far as Natalie, I know what you mean and that's all I got to say bout that one.

[_xonikkiox_]

hey Tay how are you babe? i havent talked to Ave in AGES i hope shes okay. she doesnt seem to want to talk to anyone. but yeah. im glad natalie is doing good. i need to get ahold of her. i wanna see the new baby! yeah. but god tay your such a man whore lol but i love you anyways. but imma go.
Love,
Nikki

[thefinalcall]

go me for bein a man whore :) its kind anice-- havin options. *smiles* but i gues si miss the love twang. ya know what i mean?>

[jessicaaxox]

hey tay... we haven't talked in so long. tk and i got back together... liz and i are friends again :)... and i met this awesome girl erin.. she's cool. you'd like her. i haven't seen avery for a longggg time. i don't think shes here at moms with me... if she is i havent seen her so idk.
well, read my journal and u can read up on my oh so exciting life. love you <3

[thefinalcall]

hah i will- i havent been too great lately, im sorry :( but im glad youre doin good