i miss my brother... zac, you know youre the world to meand i couldnt ask for more in a bother than what you offer. i could never do anything to obad for you. i wish i was open and accepting like you. i love you and i never want to disappoint to the extereme. just please understandn taht when i do things... its for a reason and my reasons arent ( Read more... )

and so with this i wanna stick a needle in your eye ( Read more... )

im in a rather awkward mood tonight. im hurt and angry but i wanna forgive everyone at the same time. i wanna tell everyone-- when i say this i mean it- im sorry for whatever ive done to hurt or anger you guys. im still tryin to stay up to par in regards to this damn journal and my relationships with you all. im tryin to look past everything and ( Read more... )

so time has seemed to slip into a disaray. and a spiral of pictures and sounds have taken place of function and memory. its been weeks since ive even considered writing here. and even longer since i cared. given a lot has happened. and a lot has been fucked up. relationships, bonds, boundaries, people, faces... all that jazz and where has it gotten ( Read more... )

word up homies. thought i may update before i take ezra for a walk. i got him for a few days finally... im sure natalie could use the off time and i could use the father time. haha. i adore him ( Read more... )

filthy filthy song. ew.

dude-- ive been awful at talkin to you guys and even worse with updates. ive been super busy guys. im sorry-- i dont love you any less... just wrapped up in band... and comin home and what not. <3 ( Read more... )

sometimes i cant help but smile at the most awkward times. when everyons aghast at a sight that should mak eyou sick *i.e someone falling from a 100 story building to the ultimate death* i find myself smiling. not so much cause of the death but cause opf the release. *Sigh* ive been thinking lately. dont mind me ( Read more... )

did yo know jack black was in cold mountain-- what the hell ( Read more... )

my ass is numb, and i cant move from this seat. im not really sure why. maybe its better than venturing out there- *Shudders* it gives me the creeps thinkin bout it ( Read more... )

*falls into an exhausted sleep in their hotel room/suite and is imediately followed to sleep by a vivid dream. he's 13 and its a few dyas before a big gig- nervousness and unease make it hard for him to sleep, as he tosses and truns into a light slumber, a moaning noise and a slam stirs him awake, groggy he listens again as he hears a bigger slam ( Read more... )