Time is passing.... I miss you, and I'm not the only one. When my mother casually asks about you, I reply with, "fine I guess" but it really hurts. So many changes... it feels like forever since i've talked to you. i thought the hurt would go away after time... but it hasn't

~sigh~

I miss you

So D day is drawing near... So if i don't change my name, does that make me Mrs. King??? Weird, well the baby is getting bigger in leaps and bounds, He's adorable, I hope he keeps the blue eyes. I'm in a place of content, not yet happy, but I hope I can reach happy soon. As I write this, I am sitting in my room, as my son is sound asleep in his ( Read more... )

I guess to put things up to speed... I had my beautiful son, Damien, on June 11th He is everything to me. As for me and Carlos, still kicking around the whole marriage idea. He leaves to Afghanistan in November, for a year... That should be interesting. Things at home are ok... and all seems to be somewhat well ( Read more... )

Well Let's begin a beautiful recap of the last couple of months. I last spoke to my "friend" one fateful night with the words... I'll call you back. Yah, never happened... Why prey tell, Because a very wonderful phone call from my mother came in.she soon informed me I needed to get home quickly. I did and she asked for the house keys back and said ( Read more... )

Yet again, I haven't written in forever, but this time my life is changed. Seems that I have come to a decision. I'm gonna be a mom... whoa weird to type that but hey, feels even more weird that it's true... My fear is slowly dying down, but I can't help but fear the uncertainty of my future. First thing's first, I need to find out how far along I ( Read more... )

So I have totally found myself in an interesting position. I have been looking for jobs mostly the ones we call blow. teehee but I think I may have stumbled upon something bigger than myself. I met up with a man let's call him Charles, and he in turn has given me a quite unique business proposition. He had also asked me "Will You Let Me Spoil You ( Read more... )

Ok... so now I have gotten rid of the boy life can resume. I have my boys back and now I just have to get a job, deal with some debt, and there we go... Life should be good. I have begun to do the dating thing, well for those who know my version of dating... It isn't really dating, than it is delayed humping, but fuck it I'm single who cares. I ( Read more... )

I am so tired. So confused. So scared!!! Ok so far I am a loser that can't hold even a shitty job, granted we were overstaffed and I was one of the newly hired first fired but still it sucks. School... hahaha what was that? As far as my personal life, I miss him, still love him, and the scary thing, I may be leaving when he comes home. We talked ( Read more... )

Well let's see what's new. I start a new job at Fry's tomorrow. Still with Carlos, in fact, I got my ring last night. Very nice I might add. Still dealing with acceptance issues, but at least making some headway with mama. I am happy right now ( Read more... )

Ok... so why is it that when people set rules and limits for me, I try very hard to abide, but they themselves can't do the same. Like it matters anyway, through my own thoughts and feelings I have decided not to do it. Which is good I guess. I mean now I know it's my choice and not someone else's. So now that's done with, I considered running to ( Read more... )