This is my voice. This is my preferred voice. A handful of people know this voice and know that this is my true voice. I have two of them, you know. Depending on how you engage me, you will get either the calmly thinking and comfortably expressing side of me or you will get the somewhat nervous and jumbling side that wants to be liked and thought ( Read more... )

I came out a few times at first, never really sure if it was a good idea. I first came out to my good friend Paul in the Fall of '87. At that time, I was still terrified of losing friends over this (losing 'friends' happened a bit later) and I told him that I was bi. I have never been bi. It was merely a safe-er thing to say. He was the very first ( Read more... )

Reader S.F., posted this on a discussion forum site about gay relationships; polyamorous ones in particular. This is his post ( Read more... )

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Last night, I dreamed about my mother, my sister, a place I used to live near, a cat-like being made of golden sand, intelligent clouds of blue crystalline dust, and a man that I fell in love with some years back. The dream took place on earth in an area resembling the painted desert. There was a song that I remember the words to. Well, all I ( Read more... )

On Feb 3rd 2012, I will have been here in Long Beach for one year. I have given myself until March 3rd. I have still not been able to find a solid job and am actively searching for employment. If I can not find solid employment by March 3rd, I am going to move and I am not sure where to yet. To this end, I am heavily searching for leads and ( Read more... )

I have been losing weight ( Read more... )

I've been in love, truly in love, maybe three times since 2000 when my ex and I split. Been on a few dates, but nothing ever became truly serious except for one and he, over time, just kinda let me go and moved on to another. One unintentionally broke my heart and knows it. Both have since apologized and that is now old smoke and we are friends ( Read more... )

There are times in this life ( Read more... )

We are made of universe. There is no physical part of me that was not, at one time, a part of and bathed in the grand cosmic play of light and shadow, matter and energy. There is no force in this universe that my atoms and molecules have not been exposed to. As such, I contain all possibilities and it is by my choice of action that I manifest my ( Read more... )