met an amazing boy yet again. don't i always?

i'm gonna stop by liberty this week. my first time in a while. might stop by the PAC but i doubt it. i helluv helluv doubt it.

i dont know what i want anymore.
everything i was so sure of fades away into crap so easily.

so i'm looking.
just wandering.

for nothing it seems like at times.

but i wander as a lone soldier.

that's how it always is with me.

long time no update. i know. new keyboard downstairs. the cpu is still dialup but it goes a little quicker. lol ( Read more... )

my aunt died this morning. she had a stroke and was in a coma.

FAFSA dropped me [federal aid for students association]

so i'm a college drop out.

yeah. thanks.

words cannot describe how fucking pissed i am right now. seriously.

i hate looking at all the clothes that i could never wear because i'm too big. i'm 5'4". the weight i should be is 140. i weigh a damn good 168ish. yeah, ew. i wouldnt be surprised if i weighed 170+. dieting does me no good. and neither does exercise... for some reason. i like variety. and i like food. and i like flavor ( Read more... )

life's been good. if you're interested, and you still like to read my craptastic life. add my new livejournal: thehebrewgod2

i know, i know. how "original". lol.

he broke up with me this morning [115am] through a myspace message. slightly lame. there were clues though.i just refused to see them.

i feel crappy today
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i'm getting my hair cut different, and courtney's making me over, so i'm gonna make that boy drool real good. lmao.

i have to learn that when somebody tells you to stop, that you honestly, need to just stop. they're not kidding, they're not being playful. they mean it.

sigh.

i made him so mad at me. and i saw him hurt. he's never been mad at me before.

gooooooodddddddd i feel like shit.

and that boy. are dating now.