after all the crying, i guess its time to pick myself up. this will be the best decision isnt it? like what you said, i cant have the best of both world. you think i dont know that? you think it felt nice on my part having to pretend? i could have let you go but i didnt. i pushed you away before but you wanted me to stay. i wanted things to go well ( Read more... )

tough tough tough, but this is how I will get through. 3 days, I will get used to this. fucking painful, but this too shall pass. remember, THIS TOO SHALL PASS.

the heart is broken tonight. i dont know why i will feel that way i feel, maybe i'll snap out of it someday. but whatever it is, i hope you'll be happier with this decision.

xoxo.

this is sooooooooooooooooooo tiring people are absorbing all my energy away. i know i am stupid i always misplace things and im not up to expectation i am not what you all want me to be. although i am trying very hard but i cannot possibly please everyone and i cannot think or act properly under pressure. it suck because pleasing people means i ( Read more... )

via the merciless reality.

oh wells, another night of self reflection. things are the way they are now because i allowed it to happen. i should accept the fact and not lament anymore.

i ought to be shot.
& i only have myself to blame.

im drained. on the first week of school.
can you believe it!

argh i am comtemplating to stay away again.
maybe im just tired maybe im just tired.
bye.
 

"The truth that many people never understand, until it is too late, is that the more you try to avoid suffering the more you suffer because smaller and more insignificant things begin to torture you in proportion to your fear of being hurt."

im lost.

“Making changes in your life is never an easy task. The key is not to get caught up in the distance you have to go to get to where you want to be. Nor should you despair over the amount of control you have over your circumstances. Progress is made in the small, intentional steps, and chances are, you have more power than you think. By focusing on ( Read more... )

no its not supposed to be like that. things just gets worse.
have faith, have faith.

at times i would wonder, would i have done the same thing if you're still around?