i do this every time.

i find someone that makes me happy. i do something stupid. and then i end up the only one getting hurt.

fuck him.

i can't believe hes already gone. this is already over. he is gone. and i don't know when i'll see him next. and i'm breaking down every time i think about the fact that the days of waking up next to him are OVER. no more good morning, beautiful. and we will have only eachother's voices through static air, or texts at odd hours. no more, "i love ( Read more... )

i am done with finals. and school.

my mom is picking me up saturday.

this whole thing is so bittersweet. i'm glad to finally get the fuck outta here.

but not looking forward to leaving him.

you finally told him what you wanted to say,

and now it will all be gone in two weeks.

ohshit!

just over 2 weeks until i am in colorado.

i am definitely not going to miss san angelo, and i'll only miss the people in galveston.

but i'm going to miss shawn a whole lot.

a whole whole lot.

2.5 weeks until colorado.

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can't wait! :D

and then after months and months of waiting, anticipating, my parents shake my logic. plant the seed of doubt.

my heart is screaming for me to leave in three weeks, my mind, telling me to wait just a few more months.

and put up with my parents for another summer?
i don't know if i can handle that.

i don't know. i don't know about anything anymore.

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i got a new swimsuit today!

:D

so i guess the word about me got out. lots of galveston kids are not wanting to associate with me anymore.

oh well. fuck them. fuck galveston. fuck texas.

i'll be gone in a few weeks. i can start new. i don't want to deal with them anymore, anyway.

i'll be out of contact, i'll be gone, i'll be someone new.

i'll just start new.

so i just saw an add on the side of my screen that said: "LET'S TALK COLORADO"

i'm all ears.

:D