walking away. it's not the same as running is it? do you know that you've run this in the ground? and you say take this medicine is just what you deserve. swallow, choke, and die. and this bitter pill is leaving you with such an angry mouth. one that's void of all discretion. such an awful tearing sound. with it's measure only equal by the power of ( Read more... )

i prove my point. always disappointed and complete happiness is a joke every time. tabitha is no longer getting her hopes up about anything. expect the worst and you'll always be content.
so i don't know what i'm doing for my birthday. NB people want me to come down. my mom wants to take me shopping. just two more days. i don't even think i have ( Read more... )

this morning got up around 7:30. snow still outside. ronnie and wes got here about 10 minutes after i woke up. opened presents. i got a candle thing with rocks. my mom got me a dvd player, and my converter thing is back at home, so no dice right now, ronnie got me a bad cat book which is indrediably cute and funny, and the charlie and the chocolate ( Read more... )

ronnie! i got it! i got it!! lets become bulimic alcoholics!! it'll work right! yes!!!

today some boy hit me in the face because he wasn't paying attention. i almost cut him with the box cutters i was holding. this morning i threw my cigarette out the window and it flew back in and landed behind me and burnt a hole in my shirt and put a blister on ( Read more... )

HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY PRETTS!!!!!!! I MISS YOU!!!!!!you also have my cds and hoodie, and no computer. but i dont give a shit.
this whole entire week i work 12 plus hours a day. and right now, i have $5 to my name, and WANT, not NEED, a pack of cigarettes. and casey sent me pictures from gabes phone from not last weekend, but the weekend before that. ( Read more... )

yeah. josh called again at 3am. cop following him. him being drunk. man. who'd have thought that the boy that made me almost quit my most favorite job in the world because i couldn't stand him, the boy who i think is gay, the boy who just drives me crazy with his stories, would be calling me at 3am to see when i'm coming to new braunfels? i just ( Read more... )

me and ronnie have decided that on christmas, we're going to dress up and go to denny's. it's going to be joyous. :)
myles brought me my pillow back. which i missed. and i hope things are okay between the two of us. being he doesn't hate me. which it didn't seem like he did. but still. i seem to never know these things since i block everything bad ( Read more... )

i want to go some where nice so i can dress up again. that was fun. it's always fun to dress up.
i was also told again today that i have a "drinking problem". lets see, that's now friends, family, teachers, doctors, people that buy me the beverages. i just don't get it.

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lets all say... fucking god dammed asshole. what a pussy. im going to move back to new braunfels and start it up with josh. (<---thats a joke)