I must stay the course. The devil shakes me and tests me. The allure of the bottom of a bottle is tarnished and old. Put down childish things. My system is working, but nothing is perfect, or safe from the shrapnel of circumstance. I still have hope, I know my worth. They can't take my pride in what I've accomplished, in whom I have become. So I ( Read more... )

One year sober, 365 days raw dogging life. Face the pain, deal with my problems. Change, grow, transcend. Turn off the television, abandon the herd. Consistently, brutally, determined, savage. Put down the poison, drop the handicap. My peers are slipping and sliding, reliving reruns of groundhog day. Chasing pretty faces in worn out places. ( Read more... )

I agree with you that is unfair that the federal government and financial institutions assume that parents are to be financial responsible for their children's educations. It sucks that the majority of the loans for my college expenses are in your name as parent plus loans. This makes it impossible for me to consolidate them with mine under one ( Read more... )

I can not be any more grateful to have people in this city that are willing to look past my mistakes and see my work ethic, skill set, and potential. I am extremely eager to pay them back by doing what I do best. If you are free at some point this summer, please come up to catch a breeze, the most amazing view, soak in some rays, and enjoy awesome ( Read more... )

Stumbling through life, a herd of drunks. Bumping carelessly into every person, every event. Blind, deaf, and dumb. Following my preordained path of misery, a son of fate. Everyone chattering and mingling graciously, reveling in their bond with destiny. Few notice as the outsider staggers through aimlessly searching for his lost and forgotten soul ( Read more... )

This is supposed to be better, right? Take away the poison, and have hope for the future. Now I have enough clarity to see just how deep the hole goes. Pat yourself on the back and strive for a positive self image. The best beam of hope propping up this little domestic disaster gets knocked out, and i'm pulled out into the rip tide without my ( Read more... )

Crossing the threshold of two weeks sober was utterly disappointing. The magical window of hormones leveling off and finding peace was a joke, even I can't laugh at. Apparently this lonely struggle is eternal, addiction in remission. A lifetime sentence, to a war of attrition. I began this journey to put an end to the set backs, the blacked out ( Read more... )

    Before my addictions and depression took over every facet of my being, I was singularly driven. I clearly remember the sharp intelligence and deep passion for life and experience. Driven from within, to succeed in every fashion. Reveling in pride at being in tuned to my true self, and striving fully towards my best self. Rebellion and poor ( Read more... )

When reason and careful introspection fail ( Read more... )

Why havent i had the courage to stick to my guns. Why can't I see my self worth. I need to dry out and focus on anything else