This is supposed to be therapeutic so here comes my dump. I feel like a spectator, watching other people live their lives. But they really aren't living, but rather just getting by the only way they know how. I used to be that way, now i'm just in limbo land biding my time. Let's get fucked up so we don't have to deal with our reality. i guess ( Read more... )

So i fucked up bad enough to ruin my life. Thank God for my ignorance or I would have slept through the rest of my life. Ive been sober for a week and clean for a month; I already feel sharp as a tack. I'm no longer hungry to get fucked up or thirsty to fog my mind. I've got an edge like a knife to cut through life. I won't settle to chase these ( Read more... )

day 2

We are all living to die, we have outstripped our ecosystem and mutated into the virus of man to rape gia. Still plugging away with genetically programed impulses. Following our lust and hunger we toil. Most impregnate or can't escape the relief from their loneliness and despair, for lack of self worth. There are those among us, who feign ( Read more... )

SV Adult League, outdoor soccer last night. My team played these Russians. Frail fucks that would take dives if you barely touched them, trying to get that ref to blow the whistle. One bearded kid on their team especially, he was also taking hacks at my boy, poor choice. Second half the same kid comes barreling down the line into my position. I ( Read more... )

why don't people see i'm far beyond their petty games, why doesn't she see? Why doesn't she read? Life is pointless.

can't turn a ho into a housewife.

one way or another i'll move these people
to the bottom of the pile or to hang on my back till the top
depends on a whim

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I bitch to everyone that will listen how ignorant it is to have your ex living across the parking lot from you. I hated seeing her, her dog, her roommate, her house, her car, her friends and now i'll cherish it forever ( Read more... )

I told myself a million times never to trust another woman after the first rejected me for nothing. And yet a continue to try and fail and it only made me stronger. I thought I had things figured out and I get rejected for nothing once more. Too weak I crawl back twice like a glutton for punishment. Everyone tried to tell me to get over it and yet ( Read more... )