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so what?
not sure what the point of this entry is. to make sure I'm still alive? I suppose I am and I'm trying to be. Life has been fuller now than it ever was when I was in a relationship and yet... something is still missing. A lot less than it was before and yet it's still there... sometimes. Sometimes I'm afraid that I hate her. Granted, it's a small ( Read more... ) -
a conversation this morning
a jewelry store owner stopped by to talk about construction of his store. anyway, the conversation gets going about women and he's offering to try to hook up someone since he knows lots of women apparently "what do you want, a rich or a b****?" "no thanks i have a girlfriend" (wife died of an aneurysm some yrs back hence the conversation) anyway, ( Read more... ) -
candy
"i think that reaching goals, success is just candy for the soul and what our soul needs is meat and potatoes and meaning, purpose is the meat and potatoes for our souls" -paul gilmartin, mental illness happy hour
wow, so yeah... makes a lot of sense. doing/accomplishing is just a high. you have to be happy where you're at first in order to be ( Read more... ) -
destined to reign by joseph prince
basically, doing right things doesnt make you right, right believing WILL make you right. i love it! another way of saying it is "you have to believe it to receive it" or your expectation dictates your experience or mind over matter (or how about mind over circumstance? i like it) our past we will always carry with us i think but it doesnt have to ( Read more... ) -
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is it narcissistic of me to really want to share this journal with the right person someday? maybe. it is what it is i suppose. not sure if that's why i'm keeping it or just the fact that it's therapeutic. both most likely. for some reason it feels good to keep a record. of the good bad ugly beautiful and inbetween. that's something i'd like to do ( Read more... ) -
so i was right :)
things definitely happened today. too much and im too tired to put down, but DAMN! soooo glad i didnt punk out of my time with.loralei OR men's group.... i was so damn tired today, nearly cancelled on going and just wanted to go home and straight to bed.... sooo glad i didnt! *sigh* things are definitely going on.
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i really wanna preface this entry by "fly on the wall" by thousand foot krutch
"Fly On The Wall"
The other night
I had a dream
There was a world full of kings and queens
But it was cold
Dark as the night
We were the fire on the moonlit skies
We weren't divided
We were the same
And we were free
But we all wore chains
We couldn't see it
But we created
A place between truth and overrated
If I could just see it all
Just like a fly on the wall
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psalm 94:18-19 NLT
I cried out, “I am slipping!”
but your unfailing love, O LORD, supported me. When doubts filled my mind,
your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer.
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freedom is beautiful
Ephesians 5:2a let love be your guide
I'd rather be sad for someone than be mad at them
I'd rather have pity than stay angry
I'd rather fight myself than spite someone else
anger is an ugly scar, a blight on inner beauty
and i'd like to look inward and see something pretty
it's a tumor on emotional well being
it'll grow until it shows
so i'd rather ( Read more... )