Today wasnt that bad of a day.  i was still depressed but wasnt to bad. im in my house again. damn it only last one day. lol.  it would have lasted longer if i had someplace to live but i dont so now i am back in my house.  and the only way i can get my new cell bak is if i pay my mom 200 dollars for breaing her braclet. well that sucks i was ( Read more... )

Am i worth nething? why do i do this to myself? why do i have to slice myself up? why do i strive for love even in the wrong ways? why cant i get te truth about nething? why ( Read more... )

yea so life is shit! i did get some new skool clothes but half dont fit and this time i had to get all sizes one size bigger than wht i normally get. errr! ohh well im going to die before i even where them. so yea iv been feeling like shit. whats knew? who cares? so yea i dont want to go to skool. i just want to hide. i feel like dieing. ok im ( Read more... )

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What time are you starting this?10:16 P.MName?Emily Nicknames?Em, Emmy,Turtal,EbDate of birth?March 8Sex?FemaleHeight?5 feet 3 inchesEye color?Dark Dark BrownWhere were you born?GrossepointNumber of candles on your last birthday cake?14Pets?3 kittens,2 cats, and ( Read more... )

yea so ever since iv gotten home things just keep getting worse. all day i am depressed and wanting to kill myself and i barley move and i sleep all day. and at night i have to take this midication that is so bad.... it makes me manic. it makes me pairnoid and makes me think demons are trying to posses(spelling?) me and aliens are talking to me. ( Read more... )

WELCOME HOME ME ( Read more... )

so yea i am feeling really shitty today. i keep gaining weight. i cant stop cutting. and i feel so worthless and unloved by everyone. i know i am loved by my parents but i wish i could feel loved by my friends. i hate seeing people i love hurting themselves. i hate seeing people i love in pain. and i hate myself. i dont know what to do. i am going ( Read more... )

OK now i am pissed. so iv been feeling alone all day. iv been feeling angry and hurt. u finally call me at like 2 in the morning and u give me 5 minutes to spill my heart out with all the anger iv been having and all the hurt i m going through and then u say ur going bak to bed. im sry u were tired. then u shouldnt have called me. u should have ( Read more... )

Go ahead tell me one thing and not do it. do the opposite. tell me ur doing something for me and then not do it ( Read more... )

so yea i am feeling like shit right now. i am feeling anxious,crushed,angry,unwanted,unimportant,and a whole lot more. last night was a bad night. i got drunk. i cryed a lot. im hurt. a lot of shit happened. i cutted. i screamed. i cryed. im dieing and i dont know what to do. iv been cutting a lot and they are getting deeper and deeper. iv been ( Read more... )