I wish I could erase my memory, of everything, anything, just erase it, I don't want these memories, these feelings, this lack of expression, this fear of being hated, I just want to be me again, before life got to me...

I can't take it anymore, this classism, this distaste, this hatred. All my life I have been put down, beatun up, or yelled at, because of religion, or politics. Frankly I don't want to hear it anymore, when you tell me about your beliefs, you open yourself up for MY beliefs as well. I could care less if someone said Buddhism was a sack of crap ( Read more... )

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Have you ever had that feeling, where everything around appears to be a dream? If so, then maybe you'll get what I'm getting at here. There's an invisible fog trapping my vision, keeping the barrier between real and false down, I keep having trances, they appear randomly, but are there for a while, and everything around me is gone, all that's there ( Read more... )

Yeah so I stayed home today, because I was sick, in case you care... and also I realize I don't have a crush on this person... yes I don't, so stop looking at me... and also I got a web-cam, yay me, now I am even more techly than normal... well I'm going, hugs.

I do not care whether it is half full, or half empty, because to me, it's just half a glass of water, to which I will eventually drink it down to an empty glass.

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Ok before I start up with the atomic sludge that is my LJ I would like to apologize to any anerexics (or however you spell it I don't care). I didn't mean any harm to those with diseases, problems, etc... I just get really angsty some times. I don't hate anybody truly, I just get aggrevated at them, some times for prolonged dates, or for a second, ( Read more... )

Do you know how annoying it is to walk through stores, and see "LOW CARBS!" thrown in your face when I WANT THE FUCKING CARBS! Fucking weight concious pussies. If they can't eat food and stay skinny they deserve the fat they don't want. Hell if it were possible I'd take their fat. (I'd prolly burn it off with my workout they obviously don't have). ( Read more... )

So um, I've been getting better, and better, been talking to this Heather chick, she's pretty cool, kinda got her life's story through pitcures last night, hahaha. It's reminding me how much I really hate living all the way out from civilization, as well as reminding me about how much I kinda missed the teenie-boppers. (their problems were so much ( Read more... )