Things... have been going well =0) I've been extremely busy but it has been good for me. When I haven't been working I've been seeing people and doing things so that's good. I went mini golfing twice in one week. Crazyness. I won both times hah. I need to bowl more. My avg is lacking. I hope with all the budget cuts we still have bowling. I ( Read more... )

I just got back from Colorado. Its soooo beautiful.. well most of it heh. I went to the Rocky Mountains, Lake Dillon, Grand Lake, Estes Park, Boulder, Vail, and Denver. I wish I did more hiking and went rafting and off road on ATVs or something. If it were winter I would have liked to have snowboarded. Audrey wants me to visit again. She said ( Read more... )

This weekend was awesome! I saw lil Marie. That was interesting. We watched a movie and we talked for 2 hours. I partied at Stef's. Didn't get TOOOO drunk that's good. Swam a little. The keg was left half full so Stef and I watered the lawn with the keg lol. That was awesome! I played flip cup for the first time. Hrrrm ( Read more... )

For some reason all of a sudden I find myself sitting here extremely sad. Despite the fact that I am tired... I just want to crawl into bed and curl up into a ball and wake up and hope this feeling goes away.

wow so much going on lately. I can't believe it's summer. So I got my Internship. YAY!!!!! So I'll be at Ramapo for the summer. And I'm taking a class and wokring at Pathmark. It will definately be a busy busy summer. I miss people. Sigh. SOme more than others lol Hopefully I'll be too busy to think about missing people.

Sometimes I sit and wish for things that other people have that I don't but want. And other times I think of all the things that I have and am greatful for that other people wish for. That is a much greater feeling. I hate those moments where I get into that negative state of mind and everything becomes so shitty. My life isn't awful; it's ( Read more... )

So once again my sleeping pattern is all messed up. For most of the week I've been going to bed in the usual arena of 2am.. except.. for thurs.. I didn't fall asleep till almost 4. On friday well.. I took a 3 hour nap from 2pm-5pm then stayed up all night had work saturday from 7am-3pm then slept from 6pm-5am which is where I am now at 5:15am and ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder why I don't write more. It is not like I don't have the time. There should always been a time to write how you're feeling or what's going on. I miss writing. I would really like to write my book someday. It is very frustrating. I can see that. My life is a giant ball of confusion right now waiting to sort itself out. ( Read more... )

I wish I wrote more. It would be nice when I'm 80 and bedridden to look at my old journals and remeniss about how I spent my days. This weekend was interesting. On Friday I went to the Freshman Caucus Semi Formal with Jim. It was kind of a reminder of how we live in a heterosexual world. The Pride Prom was Saturday. I wish more people went ( Read more... )

I would not say that I'm feeling emo or depressed right now, or even sad. I don't know what I'm feeling. I didn't take my medication today but I don't want to blame it on that. It's psychological anyway. So I thought I was set for housing... WRONG! that's messed up.. hopefull it'll sort its way out.. otherwise.. RANDOM... HERE. I. COME ( Read more... )