well I'm feeling better about stuff. I think my life is headed in a place of peace. I learn to be content where I am with or without a girl friend ( Read more... )

I can't believe i'm back to this place again. I myself am getting sick of my cycle of emotions. Its a little different this time, this time I'm angry. I'm fed up with the shit in my life at the moment, my mother drives me crazy other realtionships aren't going so well. My life is changing again, why can't it stay the same for a while. But atleast I ( Read more... )

I was reading over my old entries and its ridiculous how much I sound the same and still sound the same. I'm stilling dealing with stuff and its been over seven months. At this point im more sure who I am and i've grown. But I still get into bad places when im alone. Today wasent real good for the first time in a while I didn't feel comfortable in ( Read more... )

Well life is better now. I'm on spring break and I have nothing planned so we'll see what happens, I have a good feeling about it.
I'm feeling alot of peace right now. Not something I feel alot. Just trying to be present with it and looking forward to what happens this week. With love, peace and, appreciation , I live my life today.

I think I figured it out. From the deepest part of my heart I'm in pain. To my core there is so much sorrow , anger , respect , and courage. You are my brother and I love you. Aho, I'll see you on the otherside.

I'm feeling unsettled i don't know why i had a goodnight. Its almost like there is something else I need to do tonight.

I'm having lack of faith about where my life is headed. Useally I can read my heart and know im headed in the right direction. Maybe thats what this is. I'm reading this book and it talks about how no one really knows what will make them happy and you should just do your best to follow the Lord and find you use. I'm trying to focus on that, I'm ( Read more... )

We came back from our camping trip early another night would of been hell not that the first one wasent. Despite how cold it was and the lack of sleep it was a really good. I feel like it planted something in me and now its growing. Clark Pitcairn was up there at his house in the area where we were camping. He hitched 6 sleds up to the back of a ( Read more... )

Yeah so i went to see this therapist i've been seeing today. I've been having doubts about this helping me at all. I saw two people from my school there. I guess that felt good knowing im not the only one looking for help. But i don't think this is the answer , I think my freinds do a better job of it then he does. He hasent told me anything that i ( Read more... )

I'm upset , but whats new. Fuck this shit. Sometimes I wonder why I even bother. But i think at the moment I need to focus on my own needs and not do something that I don't really want to spare someones feelings. This is really hard for me ( Read more... )