Sometimes when my husband smiles at me, I get flashbacks of my boyfriend from when I was young. They don't look very alike but are both classically handsome. I think the comparison presents itself because of the love in the smile. I'm lucky to have a husband who looks at me like that. I was lucky to have a boyfriend at nineteen who looked at me ( Read more... )

"What if nothing ever will change? I'm caught between your love and a hard place. If I have to choose, my heart or you - I'm gonna lose. I wish there was a right way. I'm caught between your love and a hard place."

The hard place. It's human nature. We want to be partnered- it's written in our DNA. But damn if it isn't hard.

Everybody says ( Read more... )

 One year of Mom life. Year One of Mom Life.

You have to hold your cards close to your chest- where you hold your baby, too. Close. Everyone wants to tell you how to do it. How to play the right hand. How to feed your child, how to clothe your child. Is that sugar you're feeding her? Does she need a jacket? It's a little cold today.

I have to ( Read more... )

I wanted to go back

at least once, before the house sold

I wanted to see the trees.

I wanted to hear the creek out my old

bedroom window, and feel the stillness of night

in winter.

I wanted to go back for nostalgia

to say one more goodbye.

We were ready to say goodbye.

But not like this.

Nobody was ready to say goodbye like this.

Everything we ( Read more... )

39 Weeks pregnant. Anxiously awaiting baby P's arrival. My middle is tight and swollen, the curve of my lower back bends with the weight. Besides my belly, my fingers are the most swollen body part, oddly enough. I have pregnancy carpel tunnel from hormones being released to loosen my joints, with my wrists being an unfortunate casualty. The tips ( Read more... )

I'm becoming a real pregnant lady.

Like, really showing and feeling pregnant.

My regular clothes don't fit anymore, even the shirts, which surprised me. I pulled on a once-too-big gym teeshirt and my belly filled it out and even peeked out the bottom a little bit. My underwear are snug and I can't wear my lacey thongs anymore without feeling like I ( Read more... )

Being Pregnant is weird ( Read more... )

I'm 12 weeks pregnant ( Read more... )

you think living together will be simple ( Read more... )

Have you ever had that moment, when you realize in your adult life, that you've hit a sweet spot, something you've imagined coming toward you, manifesting, to never be replicated quite the same ever again ( Read more... )