AND I CANT SEEM TO CARE..

in fact i want to die..sweet release..

this i cant do...

im so tired..so used..so dead...i feel like ash..a non discript grey..i dont care about anybody..i dont care about me..im losing everything..nothing is worth staying alive for..im suicidal..and worst of all..no one notices..not even thoses cloest to me..im empty..im dying

Do u ever wonder my love, what should one actully do, should one live safely, but dull, or lively and risky, or a bit of both, i dont know, actully there are a lot of things i dont know, only thing i do know is that i think its time for me 2 come clean, it might all sound a bit crazy, but really, what do i got 2 lose !?!, i really care about u, ( Read more... )

Well i thought if i convinced myself that it was a lie i wouldnt get hurt when it fianally happened...but it has happened..adam just awnts me as a friend and hopes i can live with it and be happy for him...dose he even know WHAT he's asking from me??? I thought if i expected the worse...when it fiannlay happened i wouldnt be suprised...but i am.. ( Read more... )

What can i say this time ( Read more... )

FROM JIVER ( Read more... )

This has sort of become a place i come to for support and a good cry ( Read more... )

Everyone is getting older and getting on with life...just me...im staying put...just getting older...then again 1 outta 2 aint too bad.

Adam is back from croatia today ( Read more... )

I dont know what to do...everything is out of control and i cant seem to hold on to anything ( Read more... )