ive decided.

im going to quit making my fate.

im going to sit here

and wait.

but there is nothing more that i want
then for you to know that i did everything for you

and eyes are falling on me
but im not going to answer.

every touch is a painful reminder of you

and how i still love you and your laugh

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this week has been a blur
a good blur...
although as it concludes,
im feeling used.
promises of calls,
meaningful kisses?
i cant even tell.
would you care if i told you i felt this way?
probably not.
im probably not even suppsed to care about this yet.
i dont know protical for thsi type of thing.

bitches getting hifey and shit

ive been keeping busy for the last week.
it seems to be working.
im about to try and get a job somewhere.
that should be cool.

the end for today.

ew, im confused again
and i hate this feeling.
i did something i ususally DONT do
and i think it was useless.
and thats horrible.
b/c im left here thinking it meant much more.
when it probably didnt mean anything at all
and happens very often.

im sick of the cool crowd,
and people that dont like relationships

arggg.

wait,

what the fuck just happened?!

haha...life never ceases to amuze me

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