i spend every stupid moment
of the stupid day
stupidly thinking you changed your mind.

im stupid.
i should be shot in the face.

i met many hungry faces.
that made many come-hither looks.
and all i could think about was you and your voice
you talk in your sleep

i would do anything for you

im sorry im putting this up,
but you probably wont read this anymore.
noone else does, so dont worry.....

this was the last time.

i had a creepy/horrible dream tuesday night ( Read more... )

I saw lightning on my way home.

it surrounded me like a well manuvered attack squad.

bringing back memories like noones business.

I stopped the car on the side of the road

and i watched the branches spread out like fingers.

I miss you.

<3

"Big Ideas"Dreams of an allotment ( Read more... )

tired, about to go to sleep.
will write about the events of the last day later.

i went to dinner with my mom, shes being nicer about johnny, says shes happy for me that we're gonna hang tomorrow. had a good talk.
im tired. i think i might go to sleep soon.
I love johnny. and i love thinking about him. Its what i got, and i charish it.

my cd burner is broken, it sucks.
im totally gonna stop writing

pictures.....the cat one jsut now, others, last night.


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"feel the pain,
teaching us how much more we can take,
reminding us, how far we've come.
Let the pain burn away from our hearts,
we have time to start all over again"


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