lately (well.. most of) my life has really sucked... i've been feeling sick for the past few weeks, things with my dad get worse every day, and most importantly- my emotions are going haywire

i keep thinking about the past, and how it was much better than now... i miss the people and freedoms i once had, and the contentness, and stableness of ( Read more... )

i'm soooo confused... i dont know what to do... help!!!

i find something that truly makes me happy, then my family screws it up for me.

i hate my life. i really, really, hate my life

i'm alone.
i find boy.
boy is wonderful.
things are great.
boy stops being wonderful.
boy hurts me.
i'm alone.

i try to be a good person, loving, devoted, fun... but its never enough to keep them around.

i changed my color for you
i shed my coat with caution
i lack the beauty you display
see here there are the bruises
and some were self-inflicted
and some ( Read more... )

i've had a lot of fun the past few years earning my title Jail Bait but its becoming quite a mess

the problem: my dad is forbidding me to see someone i really care about unless he proves to him that i'm not just "a toy for him." if he does confront him, then my dad will get off our backs and even give us his blessing. well... its been almost a MONTH ( Read more... )

feeling pretty lonely during this holiday season...

aside from my mom's cancer, and dads asshole-ness... i'm in quite a predicament...

my parents took my keys for a month for going to see rocky and not spending the night where i said i was... so this makes it quite hard for me to see gaar. however- my dad said that i could date him if they meet him. the thing is, he wont. i understand that i would be ( Read more... )

it feels really weird being at home with everyone here. all year its kind of just been me and my mom and i've had to make my self independent, and i got used to being alone and doing whatever the fuck i wanted... now there is ALWAYS people here and my dad is so strict... its just weird ( Read more... )

finally!!! yay!!! *big smiles!!!*

i love dirty rotten scoundrels ( Read more... )