so, my friend was going to pack up and move to chicago... but he decided not to because he didnt want to miss me... and my best friend proclaimed his love for me about a month ago ( Read more... )

well, i recently found out that my mom has cancer, and she's had the surgery, but we dont know yet if she'll need chemo and after that she'll be having reconstructive surgery...  my dad will be leaving soon, which means after the second surgery i'm going to have even more responsibilty. its pretty rough, but i'm glad that my brother and i are on ( Read more... )

so.. my boss has been flirting with me a lot lately, and it never really bothered me before because everyone around me flirts jokingly and i'm kind of used to guys making lude comments... but recently its been making me really uncomfortable. he asks me stuff like if he gives me a raise, will i let him rape me out back, and i just kinda laugh it off ( Read more... )

so basically, my life is not going the way i'd hoped. i'm turning into the stereotypical teen i always looked down upon... pretty much: drugs, sex, and rock and roll. driving dangerously fast, sneaking out, smoking like a fiend, partying hard everynight, seeing someone "way too old" for me, grades dropping miserably, no motivation to do anything ( Read more... )

this year is flying by, god, time goes fast these days... some things that happened, it seems like it was just yesterday, hell, coulda been this morning!

but its weird: it seems like the future just happened, and the past is returning; habits from the past, feelings from the past... things that should have stayed frozen in time have me trapped in a ( Read more... )

things smoothed out with my mom, we ended up having a long heart- to- heart, using up a lot of tissues, and eating brownies (yum!) *sigh* my parents frustrate me so much some times, but [god of choice] knows i love them to death

its horrible though whats happening to my family... my mom and i both agreed that we don't even know my brother anymore, ( Read more... )

well this weekend has been pretty good, i've lucked out a lot... i think my bigest stroke of luck though was when i got pulled over, it happened BEFORE i got to the party i was headed for and i got off with only a verbal warning *whew ( Read more... )

i was hoping... but nothing happened.

it seems like even when hope isn't lost, it is useless to me

nothing has been allieviated as of now... life is eventful, but not quite lively.

ah well... 
went to the state fair with hilary, pretty dandy, then a choir retreat, which was productive, but saturated in vapid melodramas

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things have been quite complicated lately... i'm confused and i hate it. i dont know which way is up or down anymore, nothing is black or white, everything is just different shades of grey. i wish that memories and feelings could be dropped and slid away as easily as i stuff papers under my bed... that i could just hide things and forget about them