I got inspired when I saw Velvet Revolver Friday night. I have been taken with Scott Weiland since I saw STP in 1996. His writings are so full of vulnerability and perception. When he said "I wanna fuck but do you need me" in Lounegfly - I mean, who hasn't felt like that before? Anyway, I was up front for the whole show and felt that power ( Read more... )

The whole point of loving yourself is so that others may love us too. Well, I hate myself. I am grotesque and weak. I've been dating this guy who is so beneath me just to get that "feeling of worth" yet if I don't have it within myself when I'm alone, I certainly won't find it with anyone else. He eats all the time and doesn't let me restrict ( Read more... )

Well, I am at Day 3 and wouldn't you know my fat cow-like co-workers brought in Krispy Kreme doughnuts. I admit that I was tempted...I mean REALLY tempted to just have them. I was reasoning with the it's only 22 Carbs which is my daily limit and only 200 calories for one. I mean, I actually tried to convince myself it would be OK to have one. ( Read more... )

i didn't gain any weight. Lost 13 lbs on the 7 day fast. Broke the fast for a date and gave myself a week to do whatever. Didn't gain a pound - thank God. I started another marathon fast the day before yesterday feeling so much better. This guy I am with doesn't care if I don't eat - which is good ( Read more... )

Pantera's words describe my mood today better than I could ( Read more... )

Holy Shit that sounded bitchy! lol Maybe the lack of food is making me an incredibly dull angst ridden person - too late!

I really sounded preachy and I didn't mean to. I get frustrated when I see people who think we're all here for fun and games and like we can "leave" whenever we want. If only it were so.

I hope that new posters understand that ANA is a condition that you don't join. it's not a club. It's a painful obsessive cycle that doesn't end. It's a constant obsession with weight, restricting calories, fasting, etc. I've been this way for years. I've always felt fat even when others said I was thin. it doesn't matter. The satisfaction ( Read more... )

Officially Day 5 - will be Day 6 this evening. In full ketosis and actually saw a drop. I am wearing pants I couldn't wear before. Yay ( Read more... )

Can you tell I'm bored today? Actually, I wanted to correct my posting where I said I went from 140 to 113. I did fast for a couple of weeks and then slowly added calories no more than 500-700 and after 2-3 months of that, I got down to 113. I worked out for 45 minutes 5 days a week too. I maintained the weight til all the drama last year when ( Read more... )

That would be Belladonna. Sorry. Thanks for the inspiration and I look forward to your low cal recipes!