what girls mean when they say ( Read more... )

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME ( Read more... )

I am really worried about my father right now. Things aren't going so hot. He went to the doctors the other day to have a cat scan because we thought that he might be getting cancer again. The good news is, it wasn't that serious. That bad news is, we found out he had a broken collar bone.. and it has been that way for at least 2 weeks. They are ( Read more... )

And thank god for it ( Read more... )

My mind has so many thoughts right now I am not sure where to begin. I guess with IT IS A NEW YEAR ( Read more... )

Well I am back on the sleeping pills ( Read more... )

When You Create The Monster...You Gotta Know How To Tame The Monster...So Dont Create What You Cant Destroy...

I told myself when i first made this new journal i would only write happy things. I should have known myself better then that, I think it was a way to convince myself I was,I still I knew I wasn't happy. I wanted to think I was, And and the thought of losing him seemed horrible ( Read more... )

I have appointments all week for a shit load of testing. the most important one is my second oppinoin if the other doctor was wrong about me being able to have kids. I would like matthew to be able to go but well lets say he has other baby things to deal with ( Read more... )

Things do get better.
they may take a long time,
but they do get better.