I want him in my life, but I do not need him to survive. I do love him, but this isn't the type of love that is tearing me apart. I finally grew balls and talked to him. We worked everything out, and I told him how I felt. I'm not sure exactly what to do with this though. My life at the moment is pretty messed up and way confusing. Then again I don ( Read more... )

And I’m writing again because I can and because I get to use the schools computer a lot. …. So…. I wrote Matt that note, and he wrote back. And now I have to track him down and talk to him in person. And I was doing a lot of thinking last night and I realized that I was falling in love with Nick when I was already in love with Matt, which I am not ( Read more... )

So my computer is broken and I wont be able to be on this for awhile. At the moment I am at school after hours because the teachers just love me ( Read more... )

i talk to him.. really talked to him. about. the whole situation. and how he felt and stuff.. it just sucks knowing certain things.. like how i was trying to fall for matt again to avoid thinking of him .. and how you only really get once chance and it doesnt matter who ruins it..it's never the same... i dont know. i still cant understand how ( Read more... )

I talk to Dave tonight. Sometimes....well, everytime I speak with him it makes me wonder why I am still sitting here and not on a plane. But, I guess there is a reason for why I am not there ( Read more... )

human emotions are so confusing.
i wish i was an alien

Matt came over tonight, which is really weird because he is in Ottawa on the weekdays, but it was nice. He left early though, about 10 minutes ago. We stood outside for awhile. It was weird. Just really weird. Now i feel all empty. this is lame.

i am going to kick a girls ass tomorrow because stupid bitches piss me off.

I got him back.I'm not going to lie, I'm not that much into him. But I do feel things. I think i always have. And I still think that he isnt completely over Sara, but I'm not completely over someone else either. But like I said, when I am with him I feel better about everything. And tonight was just, whoa. We were fighting, like wrestling for about ( Read more... )

I need Matt in my life. I dont want to admit it because then it would make it true. I dont love him ... honestly. I once thought that I did, but for some reason that thought died. And sometimes I wish I didnt feel anything for him, sometimes I wish I met someone else so that it would erase all the things I felt for Matt. Then Nick came along and ( Read more... )

The two things people will never be able to understand ... is eachother, and themselves. We dont know why we do the things we do. And we dont know why others do the things they do. We dont know why certain words are spoken. We dont know why hearts get broken. We can never understand the reason we are all here. But I think we're here for eachother. ( Read more... )