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Time Mis-management
My days go by so fast now it's like by the time I look up it's time for dinner, and if I skip that I'll keep running clear through to midnight. Every day I'm sucked in to work, reading, researching, and I have to stop and wonder if it's getting me anywhere. I mean, work, obviously that pays off but I've been doing little side projects that I'm ( Read more... ) -
To China - Hail Mary
The 14th would have been my brother's 28th birthday and my family has gathered to mourn his loss, if only by emails and telephone calls. It's a sad time ( Read more... ) -
Adminspotting
Adminspotting Choose no life. Choose sysadminning. Choose no career ( Read more... ) -
Productivity
I'd like to think that I'm proficient at what I do, that I provide quality solutions that are efficient and sustainable, but at the same time I'm so afraid that I'm not living up to that mark that I frequently sell myself short and fear that I'm not going to hit the mark. Recently I had occasion to take part in a large project and what was ( Read more... ) -
How Are You Doing?
How are you doing?
Do you really want to know? I haven't had enough sleep in weeks, I've squandered opportunities to spend time with my girlfriend because I've been distracted by work, I'm disengaged from my life because I'm afraid to confront the real issues that plague me and I assume that if I just run on auto-pilot for a while things will get ( Read more... ) -
Bleed
This is my official original post on LiveJournal - the rest was imported from a private blog I used to keep on a private server with a very limited audience. I wasn't sure I wanted to disclose the intimate details of my life, and I'm still uncertain, but there is always the possibility that I can tag a post as being for me and me alone so I'm ( Read more... ) -
Party Flavors
Formal events intimidate me. On the surface I think it's as simple as fearing I won't fit in with the crowd. If you look a little deeper, though, I suspect it has more to do with past experiences where holidays and other events were decimated by drug- and alcohol-fueled rampages usually with my mom at the helm. It's as if I've been trained to fear ( Read more... ) -
World Wide Well
Saul Williams, a poet I like very much, said that his art comes from self-exploration and that by looking deeper in to yourself you are actually peering in to all of humanity; beneath the skin and hair and teeth we are all the same being. I think that's an interesting way of looking at things. It's like having a well in your back yard, and your ( Read more... ) -
Springfield Trip
Just a few hours ago I rolled back in to town after spending this week visiting my grandparents in Springfield, Illinois. It was the first vacation I've taken with Christine and I think it went very well. I maintain that you can learn a lot about a person during the course of a road trip, and that was the case with Christine and I. For example, I ( Read more... ) -
Fresh Ink
Added Friday, June 19th 11:45am
There are so many modern-primitive souls wandering around with tattoos and piercings now that I feel it's lost some of the mystique, like somehow the image shifted from it being an underground way of representing yourself to fellow bod-mod aficionados and perhaps even the criminal element to being this socially ( Read more... )