instead of closing my eyes now i open them and i wake up with a warmer feeling every morning. remember last summer we left her in bed to sleep and ran outside in the rain, we said it was a new day and the world was taking a shower. tomorrow would be clean and i never believed us until now.. tomorrow will be clean and i will run feeling new and ( Read more... )

i've been looking for a reason to help me kill this season and i know we both still feel so alone in cold weather and waiting on the phone to ring. but it never does because you're trying to hold your grudge. we're always looking for something else to fill the emptiness like a job or a hobby but nothing helps when you're alone in your bed at night ( Read more... )

people avoid me like a plague ( Read more... )

lately, i can't find inspiration in anything.

amaze me, my inconsistant friends and show me what's under your sleeve because i'm tired of being lied to and finding tacks in my seat. we haven't slept in five days because of the things we take to keep us all awake. i guess we're all addicted- but we're all just trying to find something worth fighting for. even though most of the time i feel like ( Read more... )

it's a righteous kind of vengeance driving picking out these scented sticks wondering what the fuck happened to being innocent? it's like every day is a big lie that i started to believe and refuse to deny but i thought of quitting and crying and trying it's a loss of all hope and i don't know if i'll ever deal when nothing we say is sincere or ( Read more... )

i tried bringing up how i felt and explaining the difference in the way you've been acting but it all comes down to your computer games and maybe i should have said it sooner. our relationship got in the way of you always playing games... or so you say, but in reality (i know that's a hard thing for you) i think you are scared of love and trying ( Read more... )

shake you up, i've got to shake it down. i can't hear you talk in circles anymore. you fell and slipped through the door, i hollered "walk much" but all you needed was someone to help. and i'm sorry but you pushed me away, you pushed everyone away and all we wanted was to give you reasons to go on. i know you said you lost yourself and i made you ( Read more... )

tonight i raise this glass of wine to driving drunk and feeling fine ( Read more... )

we still sleep in but i'm not sure how you feel anymore. we wake up to smoke some bud but nothing takes me to a different world like you used to. sometimes i still smell your cigarette breath, like his from all those drunken nights we spent having sex in our friends' cars. underneath the sparkling shooting stars. we always noticed those. and i ( Read more... )