So last nite i was kinda upset cause sunny d's wants me to go with that guy richie from bowlen. Any ways he comes over to my car and tris to kiss me. so did not happen. So then all he wanted to know was why. Of course i didnt want to tell him any thing. So know he thinks that ill atless think about how i feel about him. Truth is i dont like him ( Read more... )

Tuesday: So yeah today i could not beleive how good i was bowling i got a 128 my first game. It felt good . for those who are laughing at me right now fuck you, cause i thought that was realy good for me. Yeah!!! So yeah never been more excited in my live... we went and hung otu with adam and richie. Got some burger king and then they aked if we ( Read more... )

So i havent been sleeping all that much to much to think about. I feel as if i ... i dont know. i feel like crap cause iv messed up again. i cant get away from the thing that kill me the most. SO.. iv been keeping my self bissy cause i know if i stop ill break down like no other. I feel so fustrated with my self. Sometimes it makes me crazy thats ( Read more... )

I feel like crap. So iv realy done it this time. Fucked up my hole life once again. God i can never say any thing right , even if im not saying any thing.I ... cant think any more. Everthing that was ever important to me is gone. I feel like dieing. I have nothing to lose now, so why not. College isent going great right know, because all i can ( Read more... )

I don’t know what I think any more. Every thing that I know is no longer the same. I find myself thinking this a lot. But, just go with it seams to make...well I think it dose. So I thought that I would be excited. But it was just another day. Hey, so my first day going to the main campus (I’m excited trust e I’m wiggling in my chair thinking about ( Read more... )

I'v been feeling kinda bleah lately. Been working alot of hours, and next week i start school. Can what actully, it kind like a change that I need. At the moment thats what i want to think. Not realy, in a way though, Im kinda looking for something that will make me happy. Something that you know. I cant think right know. Im at sunnyD'd house and ( Read more... )

So monday was my b day and it sucke. Ever wnat something simple and not get it. that was monday. But what the fuck everyones sapost to feel like crap on there Bday, right. I dont need any thing every time i saspect some tning it lets me down even more. Im not talking about a gift, im talking about some thing totally free. whatever ( Read more... )

I just want my old life back. every thing these days is bleah. I cant think any more. It makes me just want to forget everone that i love and movie away. there be no diff. i already feel like i have no one most of the time.god i fuck ever thing up. wish i was like sunny d think that ever bad thing that happens will just go away with time. i dont ( Read more... )

so... lifes been kinda sucky since i have had a boy friend. I dont lke it. i wish i could just tell andy that i just want to be friend and still be able to hang out with him as friends. I dont want to heart any one. plus i love Andys family and i feel like i'll disapoint them. god boy friends come with so much. this must be why my uncles ex wifes ( Read more... )