You just need to stop, and let go completely of the past, all your past relationships, all your past "friends", all your past demons. I can't look at any of you anymore, brings back shit that I don't want to remember. Too much time spent dicking around. Going to spend all my free time doing anything but what I have been doing. Hopefully it gets

So wound up talking to someone from high school for two hours tonight. And went and revisited some of my old LJ's that I hadn't deleted (or blurty's or whatever they were). I can't access them, but I can read the public posts. Found THIS!

1. I am in the Northeast
2. i've locked myself out of my room 3 times in one day.
3. I am listening to Me ( Read more... )

Coast Guard? Will they take my fat ass?

Twinkling lights, full of hope.
Shoppers with their bags,
running around from store to store.
Soft snow begins to fall,
a noise begins somewhere.

Thoughts of you,
sometime ago.
Ghosts of Christmas past.
The memories cling,
to each of my heartstrings.

Each passerby

Wow ( Read more... )

Tell mom I'm sorry for leaving her with more crap on her plate.
Tell my sister I am a wuss, and I took the easy way out. I can't do it anymore.
Goodbye.

Has it been this hard in past experiences? I don't know, does a measly piece of jewelry or two make the difference? Or is the fact that after sabotaging a relationship four times, each time I felt a piece of me ripped inside? I know how this probably will work. First month, be whiney and complain and miserable to anyone who will listen. People ( Read more... )

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