all of this is incredibly bad timing... i can deal with one or the other, g/f or parents. but both at the same time is incredibly depressing... i have had the weirdeist thoughts and i'm starting to scare myself. i'm starting to lose it. i don't even want to go into what's going on. but when everything messes up at once and seems to keep ( Read more... )

What Would You Do If ( Read more... )

ok so where to start ( Read more... )

people need to be more sure of theirselves and what they want. i think a good thought is, "how can you figure out how someone else works if you can't figure out how you work,". You just gotta be sure of yourself and what you want. I think I am very sure of myself, and I know myself well. I know what I want in life. I know how to get it. I ( Read more... )

Maybe I hold love up too high. I believe love is all you really need to get by. I believe it can last forever no matter what it takes to get there. no matter how hard it is. I believe it is the best thing in life. I believe it SHOULD last forever no matter what. I believe that if you let yourself fall in love, you should be obligated to make ( Read more... )

I can't decide if what i did was best. yeah most of you think it is but most of you also don't what is worth it and what isn't worth it to me. oh well... you can't change people honestly. if i could just say do this differently and everything will be fine i would have. but tried that last time and it lasted for all of 2 weeks. i think she just ( Read more... )

what exactly is the point of even being here, nothing goes right anymore. the few times things do go good isn't enough to make me happy. and things with the person that matters the most have fucked up so much because of the other things, and the other people. and because of that all happiness is rendered. Oh well now that i'm done with them i'm ( Read more... )

I never betray anyone so it really pisses me off when people betray me.

none of the people i am losing as friends were even good friends in the first place. in fact, most of them were bad friends. I welcome this change with open arms. There's a thing called loyalty. and I don't think most of you know what it is. If you do I am very glad for

Dear Journal ( Read more... )

i feel like a friend i should have closer is bruce. whenever he comes around we can talk about love and actually know each other is for real about it. other people i talk to are just like "yeah, im in love.. it's great" you know, typical shit. me and bruce can actually go in depth to little things that no one else really feels about it all. ( Read more... )