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Some perspective
Finally was able to talk to another friend today and get some of this "junk" off my chest. Laura was really sweet and patiently listened as I told her what happened. Having been through a somewhat similar situation, she had the perspective of experience and therefore was able to calm me down and help me see that it may not be as bad as it seems, ( Read more... ) -
Outed continued...
Still not sure how I'm feeling about all this yet, and to make matters worse, apparently all my supposed friends are too busy to be there for me, but when their worlds fall apart, who do they run to? Yea, that's right - me. I mean I know nieces & nephews are important and one of mine being in the hospital would worry me too, but the least I would ( Read more... ) -
Columbus PRIDE
This past weekend on Saturday June 20th, I attended Columbus PRIDE with Jamie A. This was my 1st PRIDE event and even though I attended in DRAB (partially due to the heat, but mostly cuz I was a big pussy about going drag in front of Jamie and her friends), I still had an amazing time! Jamie introduced me to all her friends including Ashley B., ( Read more... ) -
Feelings and pronouns
As I think about my life and my current feelings on living with being transgendered, I've come to realize that growing up, I was always conflicted b/c I thought of myself as a boy who was pretending to be a girl in order to find some form of happiness. I can't really say if this was actually the case then, (although the more I think about it, I ( Read more... ) -
Still alive...
Yeah, folks, I'm still here. Just been super busy with school and such, and yes I have a lot of entries from my hand written journal to catch up on, but for now they'll have to wait. Hope all of you are doing great. Love ya all. -
cycling and desires
It seems that I've once again cycled back to choosing to stop conforming in the hope of finding a girl I want to be with. I find myself once again feeling fairly convinced that I will not find anyone here who will want to be with me let alone will want to be with me AND allow me to be myself. Consequently (as usually happens) I've again begun ( Read more... ) -
Stupidity...we're all allowed some I guess
Not exactly sure why I'm writing b/c I'm not exactly sure what I have to say, but I felt like I should write, so I am ( Read more... ) -
Angry day
Today is just an angry day for me. I understand life is about change and w/o change, life would become stagnant & boring. But why does it seem that my life always involves negative change? First I have to deal with loosing "girl" from my group just when we get close, then I make new friends and they get yanked from my day-to-day existence. Why is ( Read more... ) -
Entry edited to protect the innocent & the guilty...
Obviously it's been some time since I have written (again.) This doesn't mean there hasn't been a lot happen in my life, it just means I haven't been able to motivate myself to write about it for whatever various reasons. Probably the biggest reason I go w/o writing si b/c often it forces me to face and/or admit reality ( Read more... ) -
More inspiration
I am broken and bleeding inside
I lay there dying (of a broken heart)
Will you rescue me?
No, because you are beautiful and pure
and will do what's right
and I will still love you anyway...