hey red....here's your update...call me...and leave comments and stuff.

so, do you ever feel like life is falling apart and there's nothing you can do to stop it? well, i kinda feel like that right now. i feel like everyone has already made up their minds and is just sitting on the sidelines waiting for me to fail. ever have that feeling? it friggin sucks! seriously. all i can do is try my damndest to prove them all ( Read more... )

happy halloween...the insecure thing is getting worked out...mainly b/c i found out recently that something i didn't think affected josh, affects him in a large way. a good way too. that made me happy. anywho...here's something fun.

tiggerharpttu's Halloween party:

010400 dressed as a claw.

amandamorphine dressed as something blue, but what, specifically, ( Read more... )

so instead of talking, i'll type. why am i insecure? i have no reason to be. i'm with a guy that loves and adores me, treats me great and has given me every reason to think that i'm wonderful. and yet, i still feel insecure over stupid shit. so what if he spends time with morning star and the baby. it's his goddaughter! of course he gonna want to ( Read more... )

yes...our house is clean. josh and i have the most awesomest friends ever!!! our friends kethan and salem came over monday - wednesday and cleaned our house. we helped but they did the bulk...they seemed to enjoy it. kethan organized and salem deep cleaned. my parents came in last night and spent the night...they left this morning to continue to ( Read more... )

so, school is going ok. have rehearsals out the ass!!! have a few concerts coming up...those should be fun. things with josh are going great...oct 21 makes 7 months. these last few weekends have totally sucked! i'm serious...as much suckage as can be packed into a weekend...prolly about to clean...josh isn't here, he went to plainview with his mom ( Read more... )

so...i'm here. josh got sick and then i got sick and then we had a fight and then i started and was feeling crappy and blah blah blah...anywho, things are good now, but i'm kinda bumbed...i just got home from class and was gonna have him go grocery shopping with me b/c i just got money and he's not here. i mean, he has a good excuse, he went to his ( Read more... )

so, classes started...not that bad really. i don't like not being able to talk to josh for that long, but if i'm gonna get out of here and be able to move with him when he gradautes, i need to get my nose to the grindstone and get my shit done. ya know? things with josh are going like a normal relationship...we still talk about everything and we're ( Read more... )

school starts tomorrow...i don't wanna go but i guess...that's what i'm here for. that and the sooner i can get done with my degree, the sooner josh and i can move. that would be nice. things are going well. mandi's gonna have a baby boy...on her 22 b-day. seems to have done some good for her, she's clean now. she extended the olive branch in an ( Read more... )

the vacation with josh's family was interesting yet fun. it was nice for josh and i to get away from everything for a bit. it was really pretty up there, soooo beautiful. got to hang out with his sister a little more and met his brother carl...he's great. just as much of a smart ass as josh and i are. anywho...that's what i forgot...for real this