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And I miss you,even here, taking it all in.
Lets look back to winters filled with long walks to school, car rides that ended with kisses, stupid tv shows. I know it was all a pause in what the big picture was. I never wanted to resign my position from you. I gotta say I never wanted to fall in love with you. As I look back I wasn't quite sure as to what I wanted to feel about you. I always ( Read more... ) -
Fuck you.
Worst night of my senior year so far. biggest waste of money and time. -
Finally there is clarity....this tiny life is making sense.
So. I got home from school today and decided i needed to run to deer park and do alittle fall shopping. Let me tell you. that feeling finally hit me. Fall. feels so good. I am wearing flip flops less and sweaters more. I get this Eddie Bauer catalog feeling. Were its a nice 50 degrees, leaves are rustling,the scent of apple candles are in the air, ( Read more... ) -
your the only song I wanna hear.
So I noticed its been since july that i've updated. I purchased a BMW M3 race car in august and have been pretty content. Yesterday some asshole ran me off the road. I hope insurance pays for the damage. I thought I was over her but I always seem to come back. Theres gotta be a reason. This time like all the others seems like its looking up. I'm ( Read more... ) -
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SO I'm not sure whats bothering me. I think some of it is that one of the people i cared about most in my life is gone. How can someone else make her this happy? I thought it was me. I was wrong.
I keep telling myself to suck it up.
I keep loving how miserable this makes me. -
I think I am the only one....in this drifting through.
i dont understand why kids like me are always depressed. i dont even know how to feel happy, like constantly truely happy. im so comfortable worrying. i've been thinking about this ever since this girl from school IMed me to say i was "cute" and she said something like "whenever i see you at school you always look sad ( Read more... ) -
Life....?
I spent my tuesday morning in my car with one of my best friends talking about life...these our the nights we'll remember when we're fuckin 40 years olds watering our lawns... -
Ironic? 11:11
I've got big big plans...... -
Back to you...
So its funny because during the school year that was so dark and bright for me at the same time has ended I ended this journal on the fact that I was lost as an individual (i cant completely say that im still not). That whole new summer feeling is coming back....I remember starting this journal it was so fresh, such a release. I'm in the exact same ( Read more... ) -
I gave it all away....
The wait is over....the fairy tale comes to an end....no happy endings in this one....no princes saving princesses...only knifes in the heart....blood stains on the floor...he did his best to save her from the concrete fortress that she was held captive in...but he had to expire....there was no experession on his face....only a sigh of relief as he ( Read more... )