Brighteyes_soul

"Im trying to find truth in words, in rhymes, in notes, in all the things I wish I'd wrote cause I feel like I've been losing you.
I read your last entry overprivelaged kids keep crying the need to fit in is harder when living life from a screen.

Old Classmates please drop all your pens dont write a word cause I wont reply and Im not bitter, no its ( Read more... )

This will the first time I ever write to address everyone who reads:

My reasons for doing live journal:

First off, I never thought I would actually have to write something like this. When I started live journal-I had 2 friends. I remember being anxious to see if I recieved more, but now, I miss the way it used to be.

It's like everyone talks about ( Read more... )

Thank you-to those who care.

Today, at work, I had a birthday party in my section. A party of eight. They were the sweetest people I have ever met. They offered me a piece of their homeade chocolate birthday cake.

(which I gladly accepted)

They offered me to sit down and enjoy with them.

(which I politley declined.)

After they left, I went to go ( Read more... )

I wiped the paint off of your face, rubbing your cheek as you smiled. And you were looking into my eyes as if this was some sort of mystery. A place of unknowns. A place of fascination.

"Yes-that was a time." You said. "That was a time I wanted to kiss you."

I just looked away, because that's what I'm supposed to do. I can't look because of the ( Read more... )

I don't feel guilty,
because it was right at the moment.
I do feel bad.
Because I LOVE HER.
But I LOVE YOU, TOO.
I'm so goddamn confused.
I know I'm not going to sleep tonight.
And I have no one to blame but myself.

34 days...

I really didn't have much to write about tonight. I wanted to keep everything to myself. It meant so much to me, and I didn't think most would understand.

But you'll understand this:

I want to be heard.

I want to know that there are others that care.

I want the people I care about, to know that I care about them.

I want the people I don't talk to ( Read more... )

"Sympathy constitutes friendship; but in love there is a sort of antipathy, or opposing passion. Each strives to be the other, and both together make up one whole."

I wonder if this is really true, if that could ever really happen...

but at the same time...

"Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes...just be an illusion."

I guess it ( Read more... )

And I think that at some points,
doing what you want to do...
at that EXACT moment...
isn't right.
Because as I always say 2+2 does not equal..

5.

I know that right decisions were made
although it felt like it was all the wrong ones.

I'm smiling tonight, content in what could be.
Letting my imagination run wild.
I'm content to wonder.
In knowing that ( Read more... )

Anyone who has a clue about what I meant in my last entry,
read it carefully...because it was just pondering thoughts.
I can't help what goes through my brain sometimes.
But I can help how I act upon them.

Oh by the way,
38 days until I move out.
So if you have anything you want to say to me before I go....