Why does it have to be my bad luck that I get sick right before finals both semesters of my first year of college?  I feel horrible right now and I am so upset that I am all alone.  I do not want to be by myself in Danny's house (though, admittedly, it is much better  than being all alone in my dorm room).  However, I am being a baby and I don't ( Read more... )

I really, really, really hate being sick.  And it's the last day of the semester and I couldn't even go to class today because I was so ill.  I have to be better by Monday for my only two exams ( Read more... )

I feel like one of the luckiest people in the world right now. . . I can't remember ever feeling this lucky and happy. 
I wish tomorrow wasn't Monday.
I wish that six weeks wasn't such a horribly long time.
Soooo thrilled!!!! 

 I can't believe how good things are right now.  I can't believe how happy I am with how the situation worked out, despite that the whole thing is kind of ironic.  But he's soooo good to me and sweet and caring and I feel so comfortable around him.  It's adorable.  It's just weird the path I had to take in order to get to where I am now ( Read more... )

Well, it's over.
I would have never been good enough; no matter how much he wanted me to be, or how much I tried, I could never be Amanda.
I just thought that I meant more to him than that.  I thought that this was what he wanted.  
But I should have known that I would be the one ultimately being crushed.  What else is new? 
I just feel so crushed and ( Read more... )

 And October fifth ended up working out after all.  Life can be funny that way.  I went home to get away from all the drama, and within the first few hours of being home it managed to get resolved.  Sooo, it's official now and I'm so incredibly happy!!! 

 I should have known.
I should have known that I would get hurt; I should have figured that I would be the one to get crushed.
I fell into the same trap that I foresaw and was afraid of long, long before this situation ever existed.
I let myself become too close too fast and it resulted in me getting hurt.
I should have known.

I've been counting down the days until October fifth for almost two weeks and now that it is practically here I'm almost afraid.  I got so used to keeping things quiet, to convincing people that things weren't quite as they appeared that it has become easier.  It's going to be difficult to make things become reality now.  When everything was more ( Read more... )

 Last night was amazing.  Swinging at the park and gazing up at the stars just seems like something from a movie.
I'm soooo happy!!!  I don't want to stop smiling.
Yay!!!

 So many thoughts in my head at once. . . 
Everyone always says how awkward and bad and uncomfortable first kisses are, but for some reason I'm the exception.  But I still think that I did things kind of backward. . . 
This is sooo weird and I'm sooo happy at the same time.
CONFUSED!!!