lets see where should i start. today trish and laura dident have clinicals, they got switched to tommarow. to i was suprised to see them. um........... laura accually heard me say hello today and finally said hi to me. this is a very slow process and im not making much headway. oo yea i wrote a new song today. i will post the lyrics after im done ( Read more... )

I've been down this road once or twice before ( Read more... )

heres the fuckin deal. i just called up laura to ask her somethin. she picked it up finally after like 7 rings. i just asked her why she just looks at me when i say hello to her in the hall. she said that she has been in a horrible mood latly and hasent heard me. then she said that she was in a good mood tonight. then i found out that bill was ( Read more... )

Yea, it turned out that lea was posting in my journal. Thats accually who i thought it was once i saw the smiley faces and shit. thats kool i guess. im glad she accually had something nice to say, after all the shit that we went threw its good to be able to out of randomness drop a nice thing to say. yea the only thing that threw off was this ( Read more... )

yea i havent been updating this cuz i bassically havent been home. on saturday i went to crew, built some shit and just made sure no one killed themselves with power tools. then me and taylor left for lunch and we watched the lacross game. then after the game ended we went to the spot and smoked. Indeed unfortionatly that morning my mother found my ( Read more... )

today was the first time in a long time that i accually cried. im fucking sick and tired of feel like shit. i called up laura today to see if her and other people wanted to chill. she dident talk to me and kept giving the phone to other people then she said she dosent want me to call. hearing that just fuckin hurt. if i had a time machine i would ( Read more... )

this song is perfect way of describing somewhat of how i feel pay atterntin to the *** parts ( Read more... )

ug...... i fucking hate waking up early, espically when i dont have two. i woke up at like 7 because i had a dream about laura, somethin like she was in my physics class or somethin and then when i woke up i started to think about her and i it kept me up. man i fuckin hate that. how am i suposto bet over her if i dream about her all the time? i ( Read more... )

yea so heres the deal from yesterday. i went to a party got fucking wrecked and then i dont know what else. i bassically blacked out. i woke up this morning like kinda near my house in the fucking woods with my shirt riped in half and one of my shoues missing. so i had to fucking find my way out of the woods, and then go home. at like 10 in the ( Read more... )

went to a crucial party last night but i will update about that later, it will take 2 long right now.