hitting the absolute low in your life is what is takes to sometimes look at your world, and you start to live.  sometimes it takes you all the way to the bottom....just so u can see the top.  you begin to realize how stupid you have been in the past, how all your mistakes can be sumed up in one word...youth.  you think your invincible, that nothing ( Read more... )

i am officially out of control.

what the fuck happned to me?

when does the suffering end?when does it finally become enough?

i hate feeling this way, when i cant control what is happening in my  life.  everything is so out of my hands...destiny fucks me over.

im sry im so insecure
im sry my grandmother dying
im sry but no matter what i cant get myself to trust you
im sry but i dont know if this is gonna work out ( Read more... )

we fight...its normal.  happens once a day at least, im used to it.  but when u raised ur hand to me...thats when everything changed.  every ounce of respect that u have ever gained was just lost.  u can take ur fucken BMW and your money cuz i dont want them.  all i want to know is that u love me more then your money.  i dont want to be bribed with ( Read more... )

things are still really weird between us, and i dont think they will ever go back to how they used to be. i really just dont know what to do about it anymore. do i give up?

im scared to look at you
                        i think i may like you...<3

something has changed.  i cant describe or even truely know why or how it happned.  we were so good and so perfect but deep inside something was always missing,     the words i wanted to say just never came out.  
sometimes id look in the future and thought about  what i want for myself, and the picture of you in my mind so always so vauge.  ( Read more... )

->Cali 2marro<-

omg i cant wait to leave, i need a vacation.  i will miss a lot of people, but i do bring back good gifts with me :).

They didn't agree on much- In fact they rarely agreed on anything. They fought all the time and they challenged each other everyday...But in spite their differences, they had one important thing in common, ( Read more... )

hating everything is never a new thing for me.  and feeling so low, and so sad, doesnt shock me anymore.  i screwed up, but you screwed up way worse.

finally i know for sure.

ive been sitting here for 10 mins trying to put what im thinking into words and not trying to sound so mean. im discusted wiht ppl. basically.  saying shit, never being able to keep a secret when i trusted you. and yet i never confront ppl, i let it build up and forget about it, thinking "oh they will change", not possable.  i cant trust any ( Read more... )