yay!

i'm so very very happy.

i love my life, i love my friends, i love my family, i love everything and everyone right now.

i want a baby.

me and my brother had a good conversation this morning.
we were watching the office, season four and after a few episodes todd says
watching jim and pam makes me so jealous, they're relationship is so great, like they realy care about each other. it just makes me feel kind of inadequate, like i should have that. but theres no way to.

my dad is being ( Read more... )

i finished the fifth harry potter...
it was saaaaddd.
i really want to start the sixth one but i have to go to work...
grrrrrrrr.
i didn't want to get involved in the series cause then theres that terrible feeling when it ends and i cant do anything about it.
and stephanie meyer is probably never going to finish midnight sun... and that almost wants to ( Read more... )

i'm going to remember this day for a very long time ( Read more... )

i really really really like my boyfriend.
hes freaking incredible.

he kissed my forehead last night.
thats my favorite. favorite favorite favorite.
hes my favorite.

i feel like (and have been told actually)
that i act this happy whenever i'm dating someone,
that i say theyre the bees knees
that they have every quality i've ever wanted.

but he doesnt!! lol ( Read more... )

i'm scared of losing it ( Read more... )

i had to wake up early because of anthro.
i had to cover for harleen for the second time in a week because she sucks and i'm amazing.
it was a closing shift.
i hate closing.
and i feel guilty for buying that stupid fucking purse.
i'm gonna go take a bubble bath and cry a lot.

i am scared of the future.
i am scared of my past.
i am scared of him really seeing me.
i am scared of not being loved.
i want more time with those i love.
i love the guinea pigs.
i didn't mean to let that one jump.
i wish i felt as pretty everyday as i did today.
i wish that honest compliments weren't wasted on me.
i hope that i stay happy.
i am guarded.
i ( Read more... )

was yesterday.
yay!
i love sabrina and jesse and owen! i basically have the best friends in the world.

i got awesome gifts.
although i have to say owen's was the best.
ahhh. makes me tingle.

when he touches me, its like i'm on a rollercoaster.