Well, I am hopefully going to be having the LapBand surgery done. I went to a seminar and set up a follow-up appointment on the 19th of September. I really want to get my excess weight off so that I can be a lot healthier and can remain healthy as I get older. Now, I have to try to get insurance to cover the procedure which will cost between 15 ( Read more... )

I started today and I saw Chris Wade, she is a level 2 and does the EMDR and I was referred to her by the IOP director. I don't know much about it but I guess I will soon find out. I am currently going to Parkwood IOP. It is a program that meets Monday, Tuesday and Thursday nights from 5:30 to 8:30 Pm. It has helped my depression somewhat. I ( Read more... )

This is my favorite quote out of the big book of AA. I guess it really speaks to me because it is one that I frequently struggle with a lot. I used to really have a problem controlling other people. I have finally let go a lot and have really worked on this. I still have problem areas in this, but I am better than I used to be. Well it is now ( Read more... )

I started today and I saw Chris Wade, she is a level 2 and does the EMDR and I was referred to her by the IOP director. I don't know much about it but I guess I will soon find out. I am currently going to Parkwood IOP. It is a program that meets Monday, Tuesday and Thursday nights from 5:30 to 8:30 Pm. It has helped my depression somewhat. I ( Read more... )

I am worn out now, and just feel like sleeping, but that too tired to sleep thing. My second night at IOP went well. We talked about negative self-talk and wrote a negative statement down that we have heard.....mine was "Go into something you can handle........and then we changed to a positive statement. It went pretty good, but I am very worn ( Read more... )

Tonight I am feeling very panicky......I hate the way I feel, my heart races and I sweat and just feel like I have to run but yet, wouldn't help. I just sometimes want out of this.......I am tired of being tired and I just need to get away. I don't know what is wrong with me lately...I could cry for no reason. I hate being the puzzle piece that ( Read more... )

I am struggling today fighting off depression and really bad panic. I don't know what is wrong with me why I can't just kick this. I don't want to bother anyone so I am not going to call people and tell them, hey I am depressed, and then "really?" I guess we will go to the auction tonight and Glen will sell. I hope he makes some money tonight, ( Read more... )

Tonight was my first night of IOP at the Southaven Parkwood. There were 11 people including the leader. There are other people in IOP also dealing with their moms. I didn't talk much, and wouldn't have done that if I hadn't been asked to. I am just really quiet when it is more than one on one and even then I still tend to shy away. I always ( Read more... )

Well, my mom has called me about 4 times tonight and not that I mind but she asks me the same questions over and over. I do get worried about memory loss and all, but right now I just can't deal with that and all the other stuff going on too. About a montth ago she ended up going to the ER for weakness and increase in blood pressure. They done ( Read more... )

well I really would like to get in my car and NEVER come back. I am really depressed and I wish I was alone. I don't feel like talking to Susan or Glen at this point. I don't think anyone will EVER understand me, not even myself. I am not doing the best right now, infact it is one of the worst days I have had. I just don't want to be here... ( Read more... )