bored bored bored. slept away most of the day for no apparent reason...saw lord of the rings...didn't work. rrrrr. need money. boss lady needs to call me. yep.

i'm home. i know this break is going to be a struggle. so far, ok. the days are fine but the nights are lonely and melancholy. i want so much for this family i've come home to to really be a part of my life, but that's not the way it is. i suppose this is my last try at doing things their way. i'll be optimistic. i just have to be cheerful. i'm ( Read more... )

i feel like i've made a shabby life for myself. like i got impatient waiting for whoever else to put it together and tried to make some sense of it all myself. my mother's perpetual disappointment in me. my father hoping and waiting for me to do something worthwhile, prove to him that he was right in thinking me a good kid. these are the things i ( Read more... )

i feel like i've made a shabby life for myself. like i got impatient waiting for whoever else to put it together and tried to make some sense of it all myself. my mother's perpetual disappointment in me. my father hoping and waiting for me to do something worthwhile, prove to him that he was right in thinking me a good kid. these are the things i ( Read more... )

i have my first test of the year tomorrow- multi. i'm overwhelmed.. bleah.. wednesdays are a bitch. it was beautiful today.. a little studying and then i'll go for a twilight run.. i saw a kitty this evening.. i wanted to steal her away..

$411.80 dollars later..

hmmmm.... i feel good, really good. xc camp was great. i felt great, got to see my running buddies again, and meet some new ones.. i feel healthier, in mind and body, than before i left. looking toward this year that's beginning.. realizing that it's going to be purty hard.. but that's ok. its going to be good. yeah.

going to buy me some books.

well. its raining ( Read more... )

designing jewelry with mum... fun

picking berries with dad.. fun

cliff jumping with bro... fun, but painful.

last day of work today.. lots of hugs from little kids.. my boss sang the mickey mouse club song to me.. [now its time to say goodbye.. to abby instead of to mickey.] sad.. i'm going to miss the people i worked with. i hung out with them more than anyone else this summer.. my manager at macy's gave me a spongebob squarepants stuffed animal, hahaha ( Read more... )