I'm out, It will be a while before I return here. At least a year if not more. Be safe and take care of yourself everyone from my old life. I will come back when I have made something of myself.

because i wont lay down.

What a weird last couple days. especially today.
im speechless and im not sure if this is real.
part of me feels bliss.
the other part panic.

Bring it.

Rest in piece buster. I will always remember all the times of us wrestling before elementary school everyday. running and playing in the creek. i love you and will miss you dearly.

Dwelling on the bad and fully embracing the hate is necessary to prevent history from repeating itself.

got my money. buying all my shit. everything is in order for the move. goodbye old and hello new life,fresh start and a place to forget.

Welcome Back Anxiety.

Something is missing....

i  got my VA paper work back today. im currently 60 percent disabled. 50 PTSD and 10 ringing of ears. after seeing a psych for a few months i can get PTSD bumped to 70 putting me at 80 percent. the beginning of the month i should be getting 1G for my tax return. 600 for work. 1400 for GI bill and 1G for disability (currently 1 G a months for the ( Read more... )

So right when things start getting established in school looks like that might be coming to an end.
My dads wife or whatever she is, is on life support and the plug should be pulled soon.
my dad is already a huge alcoholic and i know that its gonna get really bad when she dies.
so i might be forced to move to Kansas to help my dad get on his feet and ( Read more... )

My life is full of worse case scenarios. Everyday is a constant reminder to myself that my life revolves around Murphy's law. i will give one example of such events which will fully demonstrate my point. this is in order of the bad news that lead to the worse case scenario.

1) only grabbed my leather jacket since i was getting a ride to and from ( Read more... )

HAHAHAHAHA! My prediction came true

enough said.