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Havent i been here before?
I feel like i have been. I am constantly thinking about the things that aren't right in my life. there are plenty. There are many things that are going well for me. I am enjoying osme weight loss, less stress at work, and i just made it through a decent break up. Stupid but true. the other thing that is true is that i am lonely. ( Read more... ) -
Some nights.....
Free, that is what ia m right now and i will tell you what, that is the most happy a man can get ( Read more... ) -
The new place
so i have officially moved out of my old place, it was tough but it was what it was. next chapter. I have been thinking alot and the more i think abotu it the less i want to be in this city. I do not enjoy living here and only pretty bad things have come of me living her. We shall see what happens next but for now, i forge on into a new day and ( Read more... ) -
The revolution will not be televised
The revolution is here. I cnat fucking believe its over, time to go, time to move on. So much heartbreak, and pain.. So much thinking of what could have happened differently, so much wonder and concern about what is to come. No happiness ( Read more... ) -
the pain of forgetting
So its been about a month and a half and i cant adapt. I could if i wanted to but i dotn want to. It hurts to know that we are both hurting and hurts more that you dont hate me ( Read more... ) -
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Im sitting here with my late night snack. Trying to think of what is going on in my life ( Read more... ) -
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I am lost in the world right now. I don't really understand what is going on in my life. I have never felt so sad and depressed as I do now. My negative emotions have taken over and I am just upset. I can't find my feet and I don't know how yo change my emotion. Nothing makes sense. I don't think I can last much longer like this. Today I saw grass ( Read more... ) -
I wish I was here
I wish most days i could decipher the code in my mind. I cant seem to figure out why i am feeling the way i am feeling on most day. I am emotional, unpredictable, and just not really all that much fun ( Read more... ) -
in other news....
So this is important to me because it concerns all the peole i care about the most. Me, My girl, my family ( Read more... ) -
Recovery
this is a road i ddint see myslef going down anytime soon but here i am. trying to regain the strength that i have lost. trying to figure out just what made my life the one that needded to go through such a major experience. I guess i am angry at times abotu parts of itlike the fact that my summer has been ruined as far as what i woul.d have ( Read more... )