and i don't know what vortex of depression i was in this past month ( Read more... )

 i'm going to actually start posting again.

i finally feel free from all the marionette strings that were knotted and frayed and all over the place.

the clock that had come to a standstill for a year and a half has starting ticking again.

i feel so free and alive.

i feel like my life begins... now.

I haven't b/ped in 7 days.
This feels amazing and I'm so proud of myself.
THat's the longest i've gone since this started over 2 years ago.
It feels almost surreal that I've accomplished this.

Plus, i love mickey
and i love jo
and i love lisa and samm
for being there for me through all this <33
thank you all

 i am happy ( Read more... )

Modest Mouse:

Yep, I saw them in concert with my lovely friend Soon Ae.
She called me spur of the moment, like she always does.. and says her friend just gave her 2 tickets because they decided to not go.. and she couldn't find anyone to go with.. so she called me! woot!

We had a great time swaying and headnodding and jumping to the music.
I was still ( Read more... )

 i may be getting lasic soon, so i won't be blind in old age ( Read more... )

 wow it's so crazy how alike our minds are ( Read more... )

My eyeballs feel like they're going to explode.
My head is poooounndddinngg.
Argggh.

Anyway,

I may be going away for awhile.
I'm scared and apprehensive and nervous.

But,
I know it's for the best.

 life feels good right now..
i'm getting back on track with bulimia..
feeling better than ever and not having cravings/urges to binge..
it feels really just.. amazing.. empowering..

and now i'm off to dye my hair pink!
tralala
;;skipstobathroom;;

i 'm a vampire ( Read more... )