I need to get out of here. It's not that I'm sick of Orlando already, it's that I'm disgusted by the United States. I almost wish I looked into going to college abroad cause I just can't handle this. I'm not okay with living an ordinary life. I'm not okay with hearing about mass atrocities unfolding in other countries and just being thankful I don' ( Read more... )

I have been hurt by the people closest to me time and time again and yet I keep letting people in. I have now been screwed over by ever guy I have ever been with. The only one of my ex's who hasn't gone out with one of my best friends directly after me is Nick and he broke my heart much worse than any of the others. I've had all my best friends ( Read more... )

I'm too good for you guys, point blank you're not worth my time. As happy as you guys are together I know I'll be atleast 10 times happier here, cause your still stuck in shitty novato and I'm in fucking Orlando. A relationship that starts by breaking promises never ends well. And while I know I lost nothing two nights ago when I decided I would no ( Read more... )

This is almost too easy. Everything is falling into place and I feel like I'm living someone else's wonderful life. If all of college ends up being like this it's gonna be the best 4 years of my life.

Everyone's suprised when they find out me and Morgan are roommates. It's like you're not supposed to be friends with the people you live with. It's weird that I have only been apart from her once since we moved in almost a week ago and that was for a half hour and then she got pissed that I left the dorm without her. Half our other friends haven't ( Read more... )

How do you even comprehend someone killing themself?

I've felt sad before, even depressed. But never in my life had I felt the overwhelming lonliness that I felt 2 nights ago. It's strange being in a place where I know no one, where I have no one. The starngest thing is looking forward and knowing I won't be home in a week or a month or two. I'm here and there's no turning back and I'm about to start ( Read more... )

Heres to the beginning of the end and a most interesting next 6 days.

I'm suprised by the overwhelming sadness I feel right now. The fact that my parents, my car, and all my stuff is gone means this is really happening. I'm really moving 3000 miles away in 10 days and it's just weird. I hate that I'm starting to feel comfortable here anfd get close enough to people I know I'm gonna miss, especially Charlie. It's ( Read more... )

One day you're gonna look back and regret the way you treated me. You're gonna look back at that scrapbook that I spent 6 months perfecting for a girl that didn't talk to me for 5 of those and see you were wrong. Earlier in the year when we stopped talking it was the fact that you might not be at my birthday that scared me, now it's much bigger ( Read more... )