Life doesn't come easily. I think that's really one of the most difficult things to face and come to terms with. Cause when everything around you is just bringing you down then what's the point to it all ( Read more... )

Sometimes, like now, I wake up in the middle of the night thinking this can't all be real and in the morning I'll wake up from the bad dream which has become my life. At times like these I get this feeling there's something I'm just barely missing, like the word that's on the tip of your tongue but you can't just say, only it's a feeling or a ( Read more... )

I really think I'm gonna be the girl that leaves college one semester in. The thing is, I feel better about the idea of coming home and working for 8 months than I have about anything since I've been here. People can keep telling me I haven't given it enough time and that I'm just homesick but I really think I know myself better than that. This is ( Read more... )

Every day I'm here I come to hate my roommates more and more and I become that much more sure that I want to leave.

I'm breaking down, or maybe I'm past that cause I'm feeling pretty goddamn broken. I have a constant headache from stress and being dehydrated from constantly crying. I'm always on the verge of tears and it's exhausting. I was so frusterated by the fact that no one here really knows me. The thing is though, I don't know myself anymore. In my head I ( Read more... )

I'm not good at being alone but I better figure it out goddamn fast if I'm gonna make it through the next 3 months let alone the next 4 years.

You can't base your entire life around one person. If I didn't feel so strongly about that I would drop everything and move to LA to live with Dana. I never could have guessed that I'd feel this way but I do. It's pretty incredible that the person who's hurt me more than anyone in my life is the one I would give anything to be with, is the person ( Read more... )

how did i become the girl who wants to go home after a month of college? i'm miserable and i don't know what to do with myself.

I didn't anticipate feeling this trapped and alone. I have nowhere to go and no one to go nowhere with. I hate knowing there's no way I can go home for another three and a half months. This isn't home and I know it will take time but I can't handle being in limbo. I miss Cali.

something feels wrong and i don't know what it is but i've felt this way for a few days now and it's starting to get to me. i feel like it's wrong that i'm here and that something's gonna happen in cali that i'm gonna have to deal with...