Finally broke into this mother fucker... I am 25. I am married to Rick. We have an 8 month old son. I'm in school to be a nurse. I have really grown up. The panic attacks are still here. The need for control is not. Life is crazy. Stay grounded.

Long time no see. Glad to see you still here, waiting for me when I need you.

I'm having so many boudt now. Not about Rick. But about being in a relationship. What am I missing? Would I be miserable like some of my other friends trying to find "the one" I don't even know what that feels like. I wasn't looking when I found him. It all just happened. The lsat five years have just happened. I feel like life has really gotten ( Read more... )

I wonder what would have happened if I would have ended us then. But then I feel your arms wrap around me. I hear your laugh in my ear. Your breath on my skin. Your words of encouragement. And I say "What Ifs" are pointless, and happiness is where you are. I've come to realize life isn't what I thought it was supposed to be, for me anyway. I like ( Read more... )

Finally I can see some relief in sight. My own home! I think we have found it!

ok I'm starting my detox tomorrow. 14 day detox which includes NO alcohol, followed by getting my fat ass to the gym.

$170 overdrawn. Fuck. What happened?????????

I don't know what to say in this situation. My sisters' mom battled breast cancer for 8 years, and won twice. It went into remission for five years, two years shy of the magical 7 year mark. It came back stronger than ever, and in her lungs and liver. They took her off life support last night. It's won't be long now. I just honestly have no idea ( Read more... )

I don't know who or what to pray to anymore. I feel so desperate. I need to move out. I need some space. I don't know what I've done to make everything I do so hard. I'm complaining and being dramatic, but I feel like I just can't get anything easy. My hours at work have been cut from 30 to 19. I'm not getting any sub jobs, but I will be working ( Read more... )

I'm about to boil over. I cannot take this house anymore. I am totally freaking out. They have to leave. Or I will do everything in my power, even if it means tking my car back to move out. I don't care anymore. I need them to leave!!!! Her hateful attitude, I hate that he makes almost triple what I do and yet he's still fucking here!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ( Read more... )